Long time sufferer First time talker

[hamelin]

Hi Everyone. Being honest with myself I have suffered depression for a long time. I don't know what trigeered it I do know in the past I stopped drinking and smoking pot because it made me even worse the next day and on occasions did things that I really hated myself for. For a number of years I was able to deal with it by exercising to burn off my bad feelings. The last few years I have struggled when it doubles up with anxiety. I have become a very distant person to people I care about and they don't know why. I have lost confidence and self belief all the things I love seeing in others. I spent 2 weeks in a hospital last year and got help. I have found myself drifting back towards this place at times but have beautiful kids that get me up and keep me going. I don't like how I feel and am worried I am a burden to the people I tell because honestly who knows what to say to someone that feels like this. I am ok though. I have just joined in the hope it keeps me focused and puts me in contact with people that can relate. Thanks for taking the time to read.

[MsPurple]

Hi hamelin and welcome to the BB forums.

Like yourself I also deal with anxiety and depression. It can be hard dealing with both at times as sometimes they can contradict each other. You feel overwhelmed because of anxiety then you feel down because you feeling overwhelmed stopped you doing things.

I am glad you are getting help. Do you feel like you connect with your psychologist/GP? Are you able to talk to them about how you feel. It took me around 4 sessions to connect with my psychologist. She is now at the stage of challenging me with my need for control. I find you need to see someone you are comfortable with but also challenges you. Otherwise we would just stay the same.

I just want you to know that I (and others on the forum) are here for you.

Remember it is ok to not be ok. Just ask for help and it will be ok 🙂