Hi lostnotfound,
Im sorry you are feeling so frustrated at the moment, you are completely normal, we all get caught up in the day to day problems in life and it all gets a bit much.
You are supporting a wife and three kids,thats a lot of work and stress, and if your wife has issues to thats putting pressure on you as well, sometimes the "rock" needs a bit of nurturing to, we put the needs of others above our own then we start getting run down.
Our childhood issues when laying unresolved tend to rear their ugly head when everything else is going under, because we don't have those coping skills to manage other issues so thus compounding the problem, and the trust issue is a residual problem to.
I have those same issues that I am now addressing and believe me counselling can do wonders to just release those emotions and be understood, its hard but good and talking to someone who is not directly involved is beneficial.
You know how you feel inside and its great that you acknowledge those feelings thats the first step, on here you can let it all out and not be judged cause many people will relate to your post, so you are in turn helping others to.
Resolving the issues and building that trust will take time, so don't be to hard on yourself you will get there and you have three precious little people who love you more than anything and remember you are the most important person their world, so take care of yourself for you, them and your wife.
All the best
July
