First time talking about my problems

[Angel2021]

This is so hard for me to actually do this and open up i've had depression and axiety since i was 16 and now i'm 34 after loosing my mum to cancer things started to go down hill my so called dad did stuff towards me because his words were i'm the only female in the house now it had to be done i was scared everytime he would come near me he would be sexually innaproprate with me I use to scream at him tell him to get loss but he think it was a joke and laugh i would hide into the bathroom an lock the door and cry would tell my brother but he would go back and tell the father everything i said and I would be made out to be a mental person that needs help just trying to cause trouble even the father's own brother was a real creep. I went to the cops about it as i had enough and needed help my cousin who works in law firm brought a lawyer with her told the cops i was a maniac who needs to be locked up and seek help couldn't deal with it anymore at the cops station i took off went home and grab much clothes as i could and left headed and lived at my grandparents without telling anyone lost contact with all my friends didn't wanted to go out or leave the house as it was my confort zone started feeling more depressed and axiety hit seen three counselors and therapist they didn't want seem to help kept saying it's making me worse felt bad even more i ended up stop going finally meet a good GP he actually put me on tablets for depresson and axiety was helping great felt like my old self again not worrying about my past use to have great conversation with him if i was feeling down and yesterday found out he had to give his practise away due to him being really sick now i'm really scared of meeting a new doctor and going through everything again telling about my past having to be sent to see another counselor or therapist and getting treated badly.

[HamSolo01]

Hi Angel2021

I do hope you find these forums helpful

Thank you for sharing your story

You've been through through hell

- Hamsolo01

[Sophie_M]

Hi Angel,

We’re so sorry to hear how you’re feeling right now. It sounds like you have been through a lot, and we can imagine how difficult this would be. Please know that the forums and our lovely community are here for you, and it’s really good that you could share this here.

It sounds like it would be really worth reaching out to our lovely counsellors. We are reaching out to you privately, but also wanted to let you know that you can call our support team anytime on 1300 22 4636, or get in touch via our webchat or email here. It can make a real difference having someone to talk to especially in moments of distress.

Another good option is talking to our friends over at Blue Knot about this on 1300 657 380, available each day between 9-5 (AEDT). They provide support to people who’ve experienced trauma or abuse in childhood. They also have some resources on their website which could be useful to visit, particularly the pages on Survivors Self Care.

We’re sorry to hear that you lost your mum so young. That must be really hard. Please remember Griefline might be really good to talk to about this, on  1300 845 745 (6am to midnight AEDT every day). 

Thank you again for your courage and strength in sharing your story. We hope it brings you some comfort to hear from lovely people like HamSolo. Our community is lovely, and has plenty of support and understanding for you.  

Kind regards,

Sophie M

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Angel2021...

A very caring and warm welcome to our forums..

I am so deeply sorry you went through all that as a young child....

It takes a lot of courage to make and post for the first time here...Very well done dear Angel....and thank you for doing so..,I hope that we can be of some support and comfort to you...

I had to change counsellors and mental health nurses a few times and felt so full of anxiety on my first visits to them...Most of my files were passed on to them and thankfully I didn’t have to go into the deep details that trigger my depression into a really dark place...

I hope you can find another caring GP..that can continue to help you through this very hard stage your going through...I think most...not all GP’s are genuinely caring and want the best for us...

Sophie has given you some really great contacts that you could talk things through with...I have used a couple of those contacts before and they are beautiful and caring trained counsellors on the other end of the phone...

Please lovely lady, talk here whenever you’re feeling up to it...We all care about you and hope we can help support and help you..

My Kindest and caring thoughts lovely Angel...

Grandy.,