First time Poster,Long time Fighter

[MTildaWrmWd]

hyper vigilance

[White_Rose]

Hello MTildaWrmWd

Wow, that's a mouthful to type. Welcome to the forum.

It's good you have made contact so can you give us a bit more information. What is it that is distressing you. I see you wrote hyper vigilance but that doesn't help much. Why are you hyper vigilant and what about? I would love to have a conversation with you but I need something to talk about.

Please be more open.

Mary

[MTildaWrmWd]

Hi White Rose,

Matilda Wormwood is my favourite children's book character, I didn't know what pseudonym to pick initially and this just sort of organically came out.. it is a mouthful!

Thank you for replying to my unfinished post that somehow was posted yesterday.

I had started by writing a list of things I wanted to talk about on here... sort of for myself.

Hyper vigilance was just about the feeling I sometimes get.. re: the Depression and Anxiety loop that I seem to be stuck in. I feel as if I have to think about my mental health every single day of my life, from waking to when my head hits the pillow. I wonder with this level of self awareness and hyper vigilance, if I will ever be able to be in the moment or content. When will "the depression" as it's so ominously known be just normal "sadness". When will the "anxiety" just be regular first day on the job jitters. And how will I know I'm okay?

I've given these things such presidence over my life that every single thing I do is somehow to combat them.. and therefore I feel like I've given them undue power.

I don't know. Just some thoughts that ricochet around my brain sometimes.

-x

[White_Rose]

Hello. May I call you Matilda? Getting your BB name from a favourite character is fine.

Thanks for telling me a little about yourself. I'm sorry to learn you are fighting depression and anxiety. Do you see a counsellor of any description? I hope you do and find it helpful.

I see what you mean by hyper vigilance, constantly checking your depression. It's not necessary and in fact it makes you feel worse. A bit like checking your tooth with your tongue to see if it has stopped hurting. If you see a psychologist or psychiatrist it would be useful to talk about these issues. By all means chat about them here as well. You never know, we may have something the psychs miss. 😊

I think you are correct in saying you have allowed depression far too much influence in your life. Is there a way you can think of to change your thoughts or at least make no effort to go there. Changing thoughts sounds easy I know but the more you practice the easier it will get. Make a list of things to think about. It helps if you have something prepared.

Mary