Hi ReneeL
It can be so unbelievably challenging, getting out of certain habits that initially came to serve us in some way. When they weren't bad to begin with because they did serve us, they can definitely take a turn at some point. Some of those habits can be hard to break on our own. Inspiration and encouragement from others and really significant relatable plans toward change can help make a difference when starting down a new path toward change.
While I'm trying to think of the easiest way for you to start on your new path, I'm not entirely sure how easy the following would be for you. Factors like whether you drive, whether you have a good GP, whether you have a support person/guide and what your financial resources are like etc will determine whether the following will be easy or hard. Btw, the following typically don't cost much:
- Having your GP order a number of relevant blood tests, to see whether you could be facing any deficiencies that are going to make things much harder in the way of gaining energy. If there's a significant B12 deficiency, for example, staying out of bed will be a problem. From my own experience, this not only zaps most of your energy but it can mess with mental processing and become incredibly depressing too while producing some terrible inner dialogue
- A sleep study to rule out something like sleep apnea, something people aren't always conscious of. Again, from personal experience, it's a condition that can become depressing and energy zapping if it goes untreated
- Changing what you do in bed. While you're in the process of changing the habit of being in bed, at least include some research time while you're there. Researching areas of self understanding might help make a difference. How human energy works is a bit of a rabbit hole kind of exploration and a fascinating one, just to name one area of research. You might even decide to take the laptop out of bed for a period of time each day, researching at a desk. When passionate researching lures us out of bed, it's not a bad thing. A word of warning though, it shouldn't involve developing a new bad habit. Sitting at a desk for hours on end each day, means not getting out of the house. Being a gal who's an almost obsessive researcher, I've lost track of the number of times we're I've questioned 'Where did the time go?'. The idea is to live life, not just research all about it (like I do on occasion)
It can definitely feel impossible to live life when we don't know how to do it. Changing the dialogue up there in our head is so so sooooo important. Learning to tap into our inner sage that may dictate 'You've never faced such a challenge like this one before, so be kind and patient with yourself. You've got this. Have faith in yourself' is so much better than listening to our harsh and brutal depressing inner critic that can sound more like 'You're hopeless. You'll never be able to achieve this. You're lazy and good for nothing'. My inner critic can be an absolute lying bas***d at times and I've learned not to trust it one bit 😁. It absolutely thrives on me feeling depressed.
