It's a worrisome thing for me, too, becoming dependant on helpers, or thinking of what to do if for any reason living on my own becomes too unmanageable. I'm not at all sure I could have more people around more often - even if I could take a place in a retirement village. (Don't have that much money). & recent reports about conditions in residential care are so frightening. Even the thought of who to trust with my care & finances, should I become unable to make reasonable decisions - I have no-one, but my sis, perhaps... but I woldn't want to burden her with caring for me. She had some years of difficulty with our father.
I'm struggling to not crawl away into my bed, too. Dealing with decisions I need to make, old memories & emotions coming in at me, my physical health being so much trouble lately, too, & I am so tired. Maybe it's a good thing that I'm not often so physically comfortable in my bed, because I then get up, each time for an hour or so, before feeling it is too much to be up, too, & go back
Having the routine things we muct do each day, gives us a reason to get up. Don't like it, but I need such things. I don't know anything much to encourage you right now... just I'm glad you are up enough to write a post, & I'm up now to write to you.
&, by the way, I tend to write over the character count, too. What sort of thing do you write?
I think I may be doing some more poetry writing later. Too tired now.
Warmest regards, 😸
mmMekitty
