Between Two Worlds

[pl515p1]

How long do you think one can exist in two worlds before one must give out to the other?

Some find an escape by diving into their work, others delve into art and it's variety of mediums as escapism, while for some, substances become their way of coping.

I have found my other world, in this other world my father is alive, he is here, I can interact with him, and we can be free once more, I know these are only dreams, but right now my dreams are far more pleasant than my life.

Since I broke down a fortnight ago I have been sleeping much more, sometimes 18 hours.

Two times this week I have fallen asleep at 6pm and did not wake up until noon the next day.

In a way it is similar to drugs, as when I awake and reality hits I crash down hard.
And it is also impeding my life, but in some ways I don't care...these dreams, these dream are an oasis, I cannot describe how I feel.
I believe that dad is visiting me to support me, and encourage me to regain myself, but each time he is about to reveal the next plot of the journey I wake up.

My counsellor has said that my mind and body are exhausted, and I need rest, so I am allowing myself time for that, but this tightrope teeters between the two planes, where one is full of endless possibilities, and the other feels robbed of possibilities.

It is hard, as I feel my mind and heart yearn to be there more than here, I know sooner or later a choice must be made, perhaps dad will show me the way once more.

I guess it is similar to The Matrix in some ways, I know that world is not reality, but knowing that merely opens it up for even more freedom...

The mind is such an unexplored place, it holds more possibilities than stars in the sky.

[Summer Rose]

Hi pl515p1

I am really sorry that you are grieving your father and that you’ve had a breakdown. I am sending you a hug and my condolences for your loss.

I understand what you are experiencing. My father passed when I was a teenager. I had never felt pain like that before and my grief was overwhelming. I regularly saw him in my dreams and felt his presence. I also spent a lot of time in bed so I could be with him.

I do believe that your father is coming to see you and support you. And while I imagine your dad wants to comfort you, ultimately I think your dad would want you to live your best life—and, I say this as gently as possible, you can’t do that from bed. But you already know that, my friend.

To answer your question, I don’t think you can put a time limit on things. I think you can exist in your two worlds as long as you need to.

From my experience, as you heal you will gradually find you don’t need your dream world as much and I think you will find you’re okay spending more time in this world.

It will get easier. Life always finds a way to bring us back to where we need to be.

For now, you rest. Tomorrow is another day.

Post any time. Kind thoughts to you