Hello,
Welcome to the forums. I really feel bad to hear what you are going through, it's not a great feeling to have day in and day out. I know it seems hard right now but as you mentioned you have overcome these challenges before and you will do it now too. Happy to hear you have a good professional support system that's helping you.
If you don't mind me asking, do you have any family/friends who is there to support you?
Being a parent is a full-time, thankless job - but it's the greatest gift and the best job in the world as you know. I have two kids and completely understand how demanding it can be sometimes. I also 100% understand how you don't want your kids to see your vulnerability and show them how strong you are. There's a term called "Parent Burnout" which we all go through as parents.
I am not sure how old your kids are but sometimes it is important to be clear about your needs. By watching and listening to you, they will learn the importance of self-care and respect your need for space. We always tend to put ourselves last, but as they say "we have to put our oxygen mask first before we can be of any use to our children or others."
Please try and focus on the present moment, you have made it through hard times before, these anxious feelings won't last forever. Also, don't forget to show yourself the same kindness and care you show your children or anyone you care about. Take one small step at a time and be proud of that.
You can try and join support groups in your community too, also definitely practice self-care without any guilt and make time for activities that will help you relax and recharge. This will not only benefit you but will also be a great gift to your children.
Please feel free to reach out if you feel like chatting more, we are all here to help you.
Take care...
Happylife
