A small introduction from a newbie

[Pumba293]

Hi all,

This is my first time posting anything like this, so I'm a little nervous. I find that writing my thoughts and emotions down is a more objective way for me to approach things. It also lets my guard down, and I'm able to understand why I feel the way I do much easier. If only communicating with others was as easy. I grew up in a small town in the countryside, though it never felt too 'country' until I had moved to the city. There, I went through quite a lot. I lost my friends, my dog, and my hope. For now, I'm not sure how much detail I should get into since it is only an introduction, but I'm looking forward to speaking with you all nonetheless.

I swear I'm not as serious as I sound, after having taken antidepressants regularly, I've just lost a large portion of myself. My depression. I'm lost since I don't know who I was as a person before I was depressed. And since it had clouded my judgement and actions for so long, who could argue that the depressed me, wasn't, in fact, the real me?

I wanted to post on this forum since I often saw how much you guys sincerely replied to each other and took the time to listen to others' stories. I was nothing more than an observer, but now I've decided to contribute.

Anyway, that's all the buried thoughts I've had for the past couple of weeks. It's nice to meet you all!

Kind regards,

Pumba

[romantic_thi3f]

Hi Pumba293,

Welcome welcome. I'm glad that you decided to join us! It's always lovely when someone lurks for a while and then decides to make a post - I hope that now you're here posting you'll be able to connect more with others and find it worthwhile.

I too lived in the country and moved to the city - it is a big adjustment and personally I don't think people really understand unless they've done it themselves. The questions that you're asking about the real you - has that come about with your move to the city?

It is a really good question though, and it shows a lot of insight on your part. Although I'm not sure there's any good answers for it - sometimes it's more about curiosity and discovery. When lives are so cloudy from depression, that probably is the depression talking and not yourself, so maybe the 'real you' is in there somewhere you haven't quite found yet.

Hope you enjoy being here.

rt

[Tay100]

Hi Pumba293

We are happy to have you posting after observing, we are happy to have you here and can't wait to see what you will contribute. Everyone feels a little nervous posting (even us champs at times!) and that's ok- you can observe and/or post as much as you like. Either way, you'll have an understanding community here to listen to you.

Sending kindness,

Tay100

[Pumba293]

Hi rt and Tay100,

Thank you for your speedy replies! It provides me a sense of calmness to hear that I have such a wonderful community to become apart of.

rt, yes, the question has come up more often since I moved, but before that I was used to questioning who I was since I always seemed to try to adapt to the people around me, rather than being comfortable in my own skin. Thank you for your insight, I hope I can find the real me soon.

Tay100, thank you for your kind welcome message! I really appreciate that.

Kind regards,

Pumba

[Tay100]

Anytime Pumba293! We can also help guide you to parts of the forum you may feel resonate with you or even threads that you can get specific insight and information from. Or else we can help you grow this thread to form a greater community.

Sending hugs,

Tay100

[GlussTea]

Hi Pumba. This is my third post! Thankyou for the post. I can relate to the country - city divide, although I left the city and spent four years in the country. It really was a shock at first, but then I came to love it! When I came back to the city I had lost a home, financial security, husband, career and felt quite broken. I used to be such a passionate person and now do about 1/100th of what I used to. I feel that deep inside myself is that creative, loving passionate person, I'm just not sure how to 'switch' it back on. It actually helps me to hear other people's stories because I don't feel so alone! GlussTea