A little bit of everything 101

[Mollygeorge11]

Hi, im new here. I've suffered with my mental health for over 20 years. Im 46. You're probably thinking that after 20+ years that I'd have myself sorted? Hell no. Im currently sliding down the slippery slope of the dark hole AGAIN and im losing my grip on life. Just depressed with my life, with me, with everything. I take extra prn meds during the day just to dope myself out so i don't have to deal with the reality of my life. I crave alcohol so i can escape for a few hours, but i can't afford it. I can't afford much of anything. Im on disability, i don't work. I have a shrink, therapist etc even my best friend but i haven't told any of them about my severe depression at the moment, or my desperation to escape my life.

I honestly don't know what to do. I don't know if I want to do anything. Im confused.

I have bpd, bipolar, severe depression and severe anxiety plus ocd. Yay me!!!!

Thanks for reading x

[smallwolf]

hi and welcome to the forums.

I am sorry to hear yo are in the middle of what sounds a bit like a relapse. And since you have been through this before... do you remember any coping or management strategies from previously? And you made it through that period before. Or maybe you could look at threads on grounding and mindfulness ... if that sort of thing was helpful for you.

How often do you chat with your support people? Do you think they they might be able to see any differences in you at the moment (and maybe waiting for to let them in)?

Maybe if you can write down what is happening, your thoughts and feelings... perhaps you could given that your medical people? There have been times when I would do this because there some topics I felt unable to talk about.

I hope you will come back and tell a little more of your story.

Listening to you, Tim

[mocha delight]

Hi mollygeorge11 I’m 32 and working on getting a diagnosis so not officially diagnosed with anything yet but my psychologist has casually mentioned to me that I have depression (clinical depression), social anxiety and general anxiety to. I’m also on disability as I have a learning disability & just on the autistic spectrum to. Just know if you ever need to chat I’m here for you ok.

[SD44]

Hi!
i too have never posted here. I am 48 years old and possibly seem “normal” to the people that aren’t too close to me. The few that are know otherwise I guess. I teach full time, but collapse every school holidays. I’ve had depression for at least 20 years and would be very happy to talk x