Need help coping between Psychiatrist sessions

[Guest_4643]

Hi everyone, my name's Tayla and I'm 20. Relatively new to these forums. I would really appreciate if someone can please help me and give me some suggestions/advice.

I have a Psychiatrist that I'm very thankful for, he's wonderful and everything I want in a therapist. He helps me and it makes me feel a bit better and sometimes a little happier and reassured while I see him. I do this through Telehealth because I'm in Regional Victoria and he's a 6 hour drive away in Sydney, so I've never met him face to face although it's pretty much the same thing. I would like to try and meet him in person some day though, but we'll see.

However, sometimes it can be a while in between sessions because I understand his busy schedule, he also has other commitments other than his Psychiatry work. But in saying that he does his job well and does what he says. So I find it really hard to cope until I see him again.

I see my GP also but I don't find her that helpful, personally. She's nice yes but not like my Psychiatrist.

I do come on websites like this, Lifeline, etc. to do web chats, and that's why I joined these forums.

I walk daily. I colour in and play a free colour by numbers app on my iPad called Happy Colour. Sometimes I'll read or write, or watch TV or movies, depending on if I'm in the mood. Other than that I don't have much to do.

Yes I have supportive parents and it's just them, my dog and I, I have no siblings, friends or other family members. I've tried so hard to join groups, get jobs, study, anything, and I'm always discriminated against (I don't know why), even by the local triage and local Headspace Centre. So I'm out of options and quite hurt. So basically I can't get any of those.

Please help and please reply. I really wish I could contact my Psychiatrist in between sessions but I'm not sure if that's allowed and how I can.

Thanks,

Tayla.

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla,I can understand you feeling the way you do and feeling no one cares.Sounds a lot like me at times.I am genuinly mean it when i say i care.I always say what i mean.I struggle sometimes to express my self as i have Aspergers syndrome which gives ms poor social skills and makes me socially awkward.I find it much easier to communicate on here then in person.I wish you could believe in yourself and know what an amazing person you are.

Big hugs,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

The report this week with my son isnt good.He hasnt been lasting to lunch time.The school rings up and says pick him up.

[Guest_4643]

Hey Mark, sorry for just replying to you now. Thank you for responding again though.

Thank you for your kind words as usual. I'm sorry that you feel the same way. I care about you and enjoy talking with you, and I'm here for you. I genuinely mean that also and I'm glad you mean your nice words too, thank you.

i'm sorry to hear that you have Aspergers, but I admire that you don't let it worry you - to me you seem a lot stronger and you don't let it get you down (well not that I've noticed anyway, I'm sure you have your days unfortunately), but I think that's pretty brave so well done. I think your social skills are great and I'm sure they're good in person too, but I understand. I have social anxiety so I relate to you a little bit.

Thank you again for being so nice to me, I feel the same way about you with the kind words. It all means a lot and I appreciate all of it. You're an amazing person though!

And I'm sorry to hear about your son, i hope things improve for him, you and the rest of your family. I'm thinking of you and your family.

Big hugs and love back,

Tayla x

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla,thanks again for your kind words that means a lot to me.It is so much easier talking on the internet for me then in person.In person my mine usually goes blank an find it very hard to communicate.

Its not long now to your psychiatrist appointment and i hope its helps you.I know how important he is to you.

My son had a bad week this week and last week he had a good week.He has Autism and ADHD and is pretty full on to look after.

Big hugs & love,

Take care,

Mark.

[Hanna3]

Hi Tayla,

Looks like people here are giving you lots of support and help and good advice. I'm glad you've found a supportive place to talk with people here. Take care, xxx

[Guest_4643]

Hey Mark.

Thanks for that and you're welcome. I'm sorry to hear about that, and your son.

I hope things go well for me with the Psychiatrist too.

I hope things improve for you also. Hugs back,

Tayla

[Matchy69]

Hi Tayla my son is a very unique person he is a lot of hard work bit a parents love for their child is so special,i cant even describe it.He has made me realise that everyone is unique and special and are all worth something and all have are own talents.I can see with you that you are very loving caring person despite what you are going through are there for people and trying to help them.You should be proud of yourself.

Big hugs and love to you,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Guest_4643]

That's beautiful Mark, sometimes I picture myself having my own family with my own kids and all of that one day. Hopefully it will somehow happen in the future.

Thanks again for being so nice to me all the time, it truly means so much to me and I appreciate it greatly. You're a very loving caring person yourself, rather than me, but thank you.

I've been thinking what to say to my Psychiatrist, haven't written anything down yet (I have trouble concentrating believe it or not, one of the reasons why I struggled at school although I tried my best). Things I'd like to ask are if he still wants to see me (I'll tell him I'd like to keep seeing him aswell), explain the stuff with the GP, that's all I can think of right now. I guess it depends on how the conversation goes.

Big hugs and love back to you also.

Tayla

[blondguy]

Hey Tayla!

Its always great to have you post (and care for others) on the forums...You are stronger than you think 🙂

Just a note on psychiatrists if I can...Sure you can ask questions yet its our psych that is usually asking the questions about how we feel.....only so they can help us more effectively

you are amazing Tayla

my kindest thoughts

Paul

[Guest_4643]

Hey Paul, thanks for replying here and for your kind words. I appreciate it all and it all means a lot.

I try to care about others yes, more than myself. I don't think I'm strong at all but thank you. You, Mark (Matchy69) and others are strong not me, but thanks either way.

As for the Psychiatrist, yes you're right but the reason why I wanted to ask him (in a polite non pressurable way) if he can still see me as a patient and explain things about the GP stuff (which is bad, looking for a new GP, just have other stuff on my mind also) is because of me being paranoid for one thing, but just because of how my GP has been treating me, and how my Psychiatrist referred me to the local triage. It made me feel like he doesn't want to work with me anymore which I hope isn't the case and I'm scared, it'll be uncomfortable but I'll try to politely ask. I'll probably end up crying.

Anyway about the triage, I exchanged phone calls with them, and by local I mean 30 mins away since that seems to be the closest triage, or a main one anyway, I don't know. Everyone I spoke to there was rude and they said all they do is admit people but they said i don't need to be admitted which yeah is a good thing. That's offputting anyway, plus when they're all rude, this one guy there on the phone inparticular.

So my parents, GP and I said that they can delete the referral which they did, because I won't be going there and I shouldn't because it's a scary place and it could make me worse (without being harsh and stereotypical). So that was just a misunderstanding with my Psychiatrist because to be honest, I never thought he'd do a referral to there for me. I guess I appreciate it sort of because he's doing his job.

So that's what has made me think he doesn't want to see me anymore, you know? So I won't be going to the triage at all. I don't see Psychologists anymore because I've always had bad experiences with them and none will take me in (some don't bulk bill, some aren't taking new patients, etc etc). So I'd just like my Psychiatrist and my parents and GP agree with this because I trust him and he's helped me.

Perhaps he was just trying to get me help locally since nothing has worked, aswell as helping me himself?

Hes never said to me that he doesn't want to see me again, never said that to my GP either. He did say word for word "I'd like to give you therapy myself rather than prescribe you medication" and he does give me therapy, and I've done the stuff he's suggested.

Tayla