Hospitalisation?

[Scavenger]

I've written a separate post in the 'Depression' forum with a lot more detail and background information. This is just a quick rundown of where I'm at now. I've had severe depression for many many years. It's cost me a serious relationship, my job, uni and my hobbies. I've been through the routine of psychologist, psychiatrist, doctors and meds. Here's a brief rundown of why I want hospitalisation:

I've spent the last 2 months in bed. I've left my room maybe once a week to do band rehearsals or play a gig. My health is atrocious. My body aches all over. I haven't brushed my teeth or my hair in days. I shower once a week if I'm really lucky. I'm down to $120 and I have $300 worth of bills. I'm eating very little (once a day, if that). My sleeping pattern is no longer a pattern, more "sleep when I can". I go to sleep depressed, dream about my ex girlfriend and wake up in throws of a major depressive episode. I'm constantly stressing and get bad stomach aches, headaches and IBS. I don't feel I can handle going to the doctor just to go through the same old same old. The idea makes dust gather on my tongue. I need something now. I think I really need to go to hospital and break away from my routine.

[HighlandGirl]

If you feel the need and can cope with a hospital stay (i.e. if you don't have my issues - a morbid fear of anything to do with hospitals and numerous pets that need looking after at home), then go!  Go now! 

I would love to be able to spend a short stint in hospital BUT I hate the places, I mean I feel really really really anxious just visiting someone there, let alone actually staying in one.  I have no idea why I have this serious phobia but there it is.  I'm sure I could be further helped by a MH ward stay...as there are people far worse off than me and the staff is usually pretty awesome from all accounts.  But I just can't go there.

Do what's right for you.  Reach out and take whatever help you need. 

[Scavenger]

Have you tried hospital, HighlandGirl? How do I go about it? I feel I'm in a place where need something immediate.

[geoff]

hi, well your doctor could hospitalise you if you were a danger to yourself, or the police can also do this if someone rings them up telling them that they believe you might do something threatening your own life. Can I ask how long you had a relationship with your girlfriend, and how come it finished, I understand that to answer these questions may intimidate you, but it's a site where all of us can speak, so to say, to each other without any criticism. Please get back to us. Geoff.

[geoff]

this is to BB, where Scavenger has posted in the depression section and also in the hospitalisation section, it's too confusing for these people and I agree with them. Will I post a comment in the anxiety section or the depression section because supposedly I have both, and yes both of these are classified as depression, so this must be sorted out. I really do like the section below my reply where it does show 'young people, women,-----------pregnancy and parenthood', as I believe this will join the 'Youthbeyond Blue' to the adult Beyond Blue rather than a different or separate site, although I haven't click onto any of as yet, but I will. Geoff.

[Scavenger]

We were together for a year. At first I was very hesitant to start a proper relationship for fear my depression and anxiety would get in the way. If I committed myself completely to it and it didn't work out I'd fall into a deeper depression. Long story short that's what ended up happening anyway. It got to the point where my social anxieties were preventing us from going out and having fun. She would go to dinner and parties alone. I grew to resent myself and was sabotaging the relationship as a way of acting out. Towards the end I was ready to move on, but when we finally broke up I realised I had made a huge mistake and became very clingy and needy. I was going through a rough time and to have someone who was once there for me every morning suddenly absent was hard to deal with.

[Scotty2013]

Hi Scavenger I agree with HG, but don't sit there and suffer, if you feel going to the doc is resulting in the same old, maybe a new doc? food for thought. Have you tried many medications?, if you want to share what you tried to date? TC.

[jaimo]

Hi Scavenger,

My third psychologist suggested I do an inpatient stint, and I must say that the suggestion in itself felt like a weight lifted off my shoulders and was the most appealing thing I had ever heard.

I didn't end up going ahead with it instead opting to try the medication he suggested. One year later, and we are still changing my medication around and are unsure where to go.

I highly recommend you look into the inpatient stay if you feel that this is needed, which I must say it sounds like it is. I highly regret not going ahead with it, and still think of going ahead with it from time to time just to get the medical attention that I need quickly as opposed to stretching it out over months whilst trying to get the medication right.

Jai