Confusion about treatment and support
I don't know if it's because of my DID/CPTSD neurodivergent brain or if it's genuinely confusing, but I don't know how to access more intensive support. I have a therapist through victims services who I talk to on the phone fortnightly and we do kind of CBT and DBT based talk therapy about how I'm feeling and what's going on, and she's emailed Uniting to see about getting me a support worker (CLS program), but it's been months and they haven't even replied to her.
From what I've researched tonight, going inpatient and being referred to other programs from there seems to be the main way of accessing that support, and the only way that is clearly outlined. But I'm deeply terrified about that thought, don't want to traumatise the children in my system, and feel sick at the idea of being both away from home and away from people I love and trust. Also even still, I don't know if I'm sick enough for that because I'm in like a limbo state of being able to unblend and observe symptoms, meet basic self-care needs most days, but that is all of my energy, and even still I don't have the energy to leave the house or even my bed for at least half of every month.
So sorry, this probably makes no sense. I just don't understand at all how to do any of this.
Hello hello_me & welcome here.
I'm not sure how well I can advix you. I think that Uniting having not even responded to your therapist is plain rude. Perhaps going to another organisation is an idea. Or maybe going for NDIS support? It is possible, but not easy. I'm trying that myself, but I'm already with the NDIS, so now, I need to show them I have a need for more support, which means more reports & forms for people to fill in, then time waiting to hear from them.
I wouldn't be keen on going into hospital if I had more people around me who I trusted & cared for & who cared for me, too. Not even if I still had my cat. But I'd also talk about that with the therapist, talk about your fears & concerns, ask them questions about what happens when in hospital. Me, I'd want a room to myself - but I don't even know if that is possible. If you choose to go into hospital, you have a right to be fully informed about it before agreeing.
I hope that helps some & that others will be along with more help than I can offer.
I feel every word you are saying and wish you overcome this situation soon. Without being an expert in this field and without knowing much about your diagnosis, I suggest doing some pathological tests to analyse the level of essentials in your blood and urine to identify if there is any chemical deficiencies in your system causing your symptoms.
This is a low cost and non-destructive approach to get right treatment including medication in addition to CBT & DBT that you are going through.