Hey Ballza,
I'd love to tell you that everything will be okay, sometimes it isn't and that is oaky too!
It might not seem like it right now, but life can get better, it will take work, effort, trust in your Dr that he/she knows best, and trying to put one foot in front of the other again and again.
On a different thread I wrote that to me "struggling" means that I am still alive. That I have not given up.
Ballza it is okay to admit and tell yourself that life really sucks right now. I get that. Many of us here get that. Acknowledging how I feel makes me realise I don't want to feel this way any longer than I have to.
My Psychologist keeps telling me to change those unhelpful thoughts into helpful ones, to accept them, to find worthwhile things to do in life to feel better about myself.
I yelled at him during my last appointment, "Do you want me to enjoy how I am feeling right now because I can't do that right now." He told me he understood that moment in time was very difficult for me, and he agreed it is hard to put strategies and actions in place when you feel so low.
At that moment it was all too difficult. A bit later on it was easier to consider his words. Later still I was able to put his words into action. It was a start to making positive changes.
I'm done with beating myself up, hope you can find a way to let go of the stuff you may be holding against yourself!
Once again I'd love to tell you everything will be okay. I can tell you that you have the ability and the power inside yourself to make each day the best it can be. We do have choices. We just need to find the strength to try our best at that particular moment in time.
Dools.
