can’t see psychologist anymore
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I’ve been seeing a psychologist for 6 months, part of the oncology department at the hospital. The reason for this is that I was referred there for help with dealing with my partners cancer diagnosis. While seeing this psychologist I experienced DV. ... View more
I’ve been seeing a psychologist for 6 months, part of the oncology department at the hospital. The reason for this is that I was referred there for help with dealing with my partners cancer diagnosis. While seeing this psychologist I experienced DV. There have been several incidents since, all of which have been discussed during appointments. Now the time has come that I cannot see this psychologist anymore. My partner has recovered from cancer and the services are no longer available to me. Unfortunately, the domestic violence has continued. I am actually devastated at the loss of support and am feeling quite depressed. I have been referred to the domestic violence support services and can pick up further counselling there but I am anxious at the thought of having to go over everything that has already happened again with someone new. I’m also extremely resistant to commit to “domestic violence support services” as I feel this puts me in a box, makes me a victim, makes it official that I have experienced DV. I am emotionally exhausted and in the last week have begun to withdraw from my friends & family, ignoring texts & phone calls and staying home. I don’t think I can bring myself to go to my psychologists appointment later this week - it will most likely be the last one and I’m just not prepared for it. I’ve attempted to see psychologists in the past but never met with one I felt I could continue with. This is the furthest I have ever gone in therapy & because of everything that’s happened during I guess I’ve really relied on it. I’m scared of how I’m going to feel once it’s taken away. It was extremely hard for me to get this far - I’ve always avoided dealing with things and I’ve really had to push myself to keep going and to think and talk about everything that’s happened. Going to therapy was really helpful but it never made me feel good, in fact for a few days after I always felt quite introspective and sad but I figured this meant that it was working. I’m sure that having to change psychologists is common and normal when ‘in therapy’ so why is it making me feel so bad? I feel like cancelling everything right now and just ignoring all my problems in the hope they’ll just go away. I’m trying to convince myself seeing a new counsellor isn’t ‘starting again’ but it isn’t working. I just feel like I don’t have the energy to start again.