At loss part 2
So 16 days of pure heart ache and anguish have passed, he is back tomorrow. I’m not sure how things will unfold, I love this man, he has broken me, left me at my most vulnerable and assumes things will be ok when he returns. I’m afraid I’m not strong enough to do this anymore. I’m scared that he will return and decide that we are not what he wants anymore. Don’t get me wrong, I am strong enough for my family to go on. That’s a woman’s way, we just keeping going. But I am so tired of trying to carry this load on my own. I don’t know if I should be passive and listen to what he has to say about our future or just make the choice that will break my heart in the best interests of my family. Or keep trying. He’s my love and my best friend, I just don’t know what to do anymore.
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Dear saddenedsaint, what a sad situation.
You sound full of mixed emotions. It's hard!
If you want to talk more about what's been going on, feel free to do so.
Dealing with the anguish of deep issues in our relationships, which effect our family so much -not only ourselves, is not something you have to do on your own entirely.
One minute we feel we can't keep going and within a short while we realise, we HAVE TO.
Extending lots of love and care at this time to you. Hugs.