The ups and downs of life for many with mental health issues, lets face it, does take its toll. I dont like predicting the future but if I'm an example of these ups and downs, I was forcibly retired early at 57yo. This is regardless of a positive motivated mind.
So, being positive is great, essential even to our survival in some cases but that doesnt mean we cant be realistic with our symptoms so when a down spiral begins, we swallow our pride, put positivity aside and deal with it via time and patience... all the while reminding ourselves that good times will return.
As for those people we have to work with that clash, I, like you Keli, say good morning and wave etc and never expect a reply, it might come one day. Eg someone that likes you might talk to the one day and put you in a good light, then they might realise they are being childish.
So, like a weighing scale we have all the bad things on one side, moods, depression, people... so we need to balance with the good side of the scale- hobbies, empathetic friends, dreams, plans, love and maybe animals.
SOCIETY OF SAND
I’m sitting in a desert
Upon sand of friend and foe
Can’t find a piece of turf
Where I cannot stand on toes
I collect a handful of grain
Then watch as it escapes
Just like some friendships
A barren temporary landscape
I create my own oasis
By weeping on a weed
But the sand around me laughs
Cause it doesn’t have a need
Till lately it be the friends
That helped me walk the land
They holding me up under my feet
-supportive grains of sand
I begin to sink so slowly
As they gather my precious hide
The quick sand laughing so loud
A kind man says goodbye
And as I become one of ‘them’
My heart now granuled and dry
I try to weep to water the weed
But sand has no means to cry
Damn it! I struggle so
Be damned if I be like them
I crawl out of the society of sand
To remain the man I am…
