Hi Laur
I wish I was there sitting with you, encouraging you to vent so much of what feels so depressing for you, what feels so incredibly unbearable. It can be so tough, when we've been saying for weeks, months or even years 'I can cope, I can manage this' before finally reaching a point where we admit we just can't cope or manage any longer. Through my own experience, I've found the truth to be at times 'I can't manage this alone'. The next step becomes about finding a guide or guides that'll lead us to manage in a variety of new ways.
The guides we choose will depend on our needs. While becoming conscious of our needs may sound like a simple thing to achieve, at times it can be far from simple. I've lost count of the amount of times where I've thought 'I have no idea when it comes to what I really need'. I suppose you could say the first guide may be one who can help us better identify our needs. Considering 3 categories, are the needs mental, physical or soulful or is it a combo of 2 or all 3? If all 3, then it can be a matter of creating headings. Under 'MENTAL', is there a need to address outdated depressing belief systems, a need to manage inner dialogue, a need to change perception? Under 'PHYSICAL', is there a need to address chemistry (getting some blood tests done for a start), a need to address chemical energy through diet, hydration, sleep, kinetic energy (exercise) etc? Under 'SOULFUL', is there a need to address a depressing lack of inspiration, a need to address feelings, a need to take a particular soulful direction that you can really feel?
While the depths of depression can lead us to feel a life we can no longer tolerate, how to find the life we long to live can involve people raising us to find it.
