Too little, too soon

[Soberlicious96]

Hi all, how you doing?

Last week I posted about a visit with my doctor, and how she said I can go off my puffers altogether, and I got so excited! ..... but I think we both may have jumped the gun a little.

I'm feeling a little bit flat today. I think both my doctor and myself maybe mistook a 'good few weeks and months' for a permanent change, and I need to go back on my preventative puffers. I've been feeling quite wheezy and tight-chested in the last couple of days. I know that this medication, and in fact my medical condition are not necessarily mental health related directly, and that I'm not talking about mental health meds, but it does affect my thinking and feeling somewhat.

I know I probably shouldn't feel disappointed, but I do. I was really looking forward to be free from medication. Especially does that really does have a downer kind of side effect.

Anyway, just for today, I may not be medication free, but I am upright and breathing and grateful to be here.

Plus, I was very brave thismorning and had my flu shot!

Enjoy your day everyone. xo

[Jackson85]

Hi Soberlicious,

Thanks for posting, I know you said it's a medical thing but really any kind of disappointment can get us down, so it's good to talk about it! That sucks that you thought you were in the clear, only to be pulled back at the last second, but it's great to hear you've had a good couple of weeks/months.

Sometimes when I feel disappointed, I just need a little recalibration to get me back into feeling lucky. I know it sounds cliche, but I really do notice it. When my wife and I were trying to get pregnant, every time it didn't work I felt crushed, just month after month of negatives, and then I realised that a lot of people don't even like their partners (I know a few!), so how lucky am I that I love my wife this much to be so disappointed when our test comes back negative.

I don't mean to diminish the disappointment at all, but sometimes we can focus on it so much that it makes our whole day feel negative, and we just need a little recalibration. I'm glad you're doing much better than you were before, and you're taking great steps to getting off that puffer! Just stick it out a bit more and you'll be med-free before you know it 🙂

Hang in there,

Jackson85