Hi. I may have posted before but not for a few months at least. I tend not to when things are going better. So I came online earlier tonight and made a fairly freaked out post somewhere else and it was kindly suggested to me I might try here. My name is Alex, I'm a transman, a writer and an sf fan, and have been trying to manage my own mental health for quite a few years now.
I recently attended the World SF Convention in Helsinki which was a wonderful event, but when I came home, I immediately came down with a bad head cold and a crashing case of what we call post con depression. Even at the event, I felt very isolated among crowds. I know I'm not the only one; in fact, Finland seems like a good place for depressive types - it's quite normal to be on your own and people give you heaps of space. The language is not gender based, so that means even when speaking English, Finns don't heap "sir" or "madam" on you the way people here do. That means it didn't matter a lot what gender they thought I was; I couldn't tell from the way they treated me!
I'd been trying to lower my dose of antidepressant. Turns out this dose was no help in keeping intense stress at bay, like I've had in the last few days. So I've put it back up and hopefully can stay there. I'm saying all this in the interests of full disclosure. Yes, I've been messing with the drugs. I also know people have much worse troubles than me.
Not sure what else I can say, just that I'm looking for some friends to hang out with.
