Hi Captain T
I find soul searching to be an interesting thing. The more of your soul you search for and connect with, the more things change. It can become more about feeling and less about thinking. Instead of 'What do I think about this?', it's more so 'How do I really feel about this?'. In a way, it's about becoming thoughtless to some degree (in a positive way) and, as a consequence, our beliefs (aka 'collections of thoughts') start to change.
I never intended to become one of those mind/body/spirit woo woo gals😁, it just kinda happened that way, as a consequence as going down the 'Who am I and how do I tick?' rabbit hole. My gosh, that thing's extensive. From 'What is emotion?' to 'Oh, I never considered it as energy in motion or e-motion (something that can be felt)' through to 'Well that's interesting, how that ties into elements of quantum physics (the behaviour of energy)', as I say it's extensive. Whether looking at things from the perspective of soulfulness or spirituality or from the perspective of quantum physics, we're basically energetic creatures, one way or another. From every energetic cell vibrating or vibing at some volume and frequency, through to the energy in our chemistry and chemical reactions and all the way through to the energetic connection we give off and feel from others, all this dictates how we feel everything, including life itself. Energy expressed, suppressed, depressed or energy in a state of intense hyperactivity or extreme excitement (whether it be pure joy or anxiety) can be felt. So, after all that, you could say 'I will feel my energy in different forms, expressing itself differently. I may feel it as high sexual energy and attraction or calm peaceful attraction without feeling sexual elements. I may feel zero attraction, attraction to masculine energy, attraction to feminine energy or attraction to either (without discrimination)' and so on. Then there are people who enjoy 'group energy' because of it's intensity. While I enjoy the energy of certain groups, I smile when I say that group sexual energy's definitely not my thing but, hey, each to their own. As long as there's no harm in how we express our energy, that becomes our truth, 'No harm done, in how I express myself'.
There's a gentleness about feminine energy. It can be soft and calm, nurturing and joyful in a peaceful light kind of way. Btw, I'm not a fan of alpha females, just as I'm not a fan of alpha males. Such people tend to feel too sharp, hard and suffocating. I find them very uncomfortable to be around. Everyone has a feel to them. At the end of the day, we may constantly change throughout our life while finding who we naturally are along the way but there is one thing that will never change...we are feelers on a spectrum of feeling, from feeling nothing or numbness all the way through to feeling extreme excitement and everything in between. For some, not all, when the question is asked 'How do you feel?', the answer can be 'I feel through my soul'. 🙂
