Hi KrysDrake. When you have toxic parents it is hard talking to them. You're right in that they both have depressive illnesses. My dad was a chronic alcoholic who also suffered narcissism/depression. Mum had severe depression which cause incredible highs and lows. There is not a lot you can do to change them, however distancing yourself as much as possible would be beneficial. Living with them makes putting distance difficult, but it is possible. I used to 'lose' myself in books, music, movies etc. I also found outside enjoyment in work as I grew up. You sound quite young so working might not be an option. Do you have friends that you could visit. Are you interested in any kind of sporting activities or do you have hobbies that could help with your abandonment issues. The feeling of abandonment, coupled with the loss of your g'father at the moment, means you are feeling totally lost. Maybe try taking your brothers to play somewhere. Are you close to other members of the family, cousins, uncles, aunts etc that you could visit?
Lynda
