Sexual Abuse

[Geniue]

Hi Everyone im going to post on here something that is incredibly difficult for me to do.  But I feel it's the only way I can get out whats inside of me.  So here goes I was abused as a child and being abused as a child is on a whole different level to being hurt in anyway as an adult.  I was abused not once but twice. First by the one person in my life that I believed was supposed to be there to keep me safe and protect me.  Then again from an outsider.  So yes you could say my whole world had literally had falling apart.  And that is such and overwhelming and intense place to come back from.  But what scared me even more was allowing these people to win over me.  So I literally fought for my life tooth and nail to crawl my way back from the depths of hell and such despair in my life.   Please if anyone can take anything away from my personal experiences in my life.  Then I feel I am doing the right thing here.  I truly hope this is not to confronting for everyone but I feel I needed to share this.  Please takecare because mental health is so important and it should take precedence in your life.  Please takcare everyone.   Hope

[Sophie_M]

Hi Geniue,

We can hear it was difficult to come here and post, and we're grateful you did so as it can be a powerful step towards feeling better. We can hear it's been hard for you to tell your story, but please know that you're in a safe space for doing so here, with a lovely community of kind and understanding people.
It sounds like it's having an impact on how you're feeling day to day, so please know that there’s always someone here for you to talk it through with. The Beyond Blue counsellors are available 24/7 online, here. If using the phone would be difficult for you, you can reach them via webchat or email: 
We’re sure we’ll hear from our lovely, supportive community soon. In the meantime, here’s a something you might like to look at:

• Blue Knot’s advice on self-care for survivors of trauma and abuse

We are here to support you and you are not alone. Thank you so much for sharing here. Please feel free to share a bit more and let us know what is going on for you, and what might help, if you feel comfortable. 
Kind regards, 
Sophie M

[Trans22]

I normally steer clear of posts like yours because they hit too close to home for me.  It's great to hear that have fought back and regained control of you life.  Congratulations.

[mmMekitty]

Hello Hope

Thank you so much for being the strong & courageous person you are. Telling your own story, in your own words is a wonderful thing to offer to people reading here. The fact that you came through these experiences, fighting all the way, & reaching a place where you now feel able to speak your truth & offer hope to others is wonderful.

Nothing about what happened was your fault. For someone to have taken advantage of you, held some power over you was not your fault.

I have struggled with the idea that I 'let' them abuse me, when in fact, there was nothing I could have done to prevent or stop them - at least not until I was older & took a certain action to stop one.... others in my life, I had to simply get away from by leaving home. To this day, there seems nothing else I might have done that would not have made the situation worse.

What was the most important thing for me was that I got through it & have survived. & I've learned a lot since then. I'm glad I'm here today. I'm glad you are, too.

Hugzies

mmMekitty  

[Geniue]

Hi mmMekitty            Thankyou so much for your beautiful reply it means so much to me to be loved and accepted and appreciated for the beautiful qualities I have and that other people can truly see me for me.  I strongly believe  we are not defined by what happens to us and it certainly dosent make us who we truly are.  I thankyou for such inspiring words of hope and comfort.  And through everything that's all I wanted to give to other people because I know full well what it is like to struggle beyond belief.  But I just want to say in saying that I no longer have the capacity to be around people who don't truly see me for who I am deep down inside of me.  I will always no longer allow anyone ever again to miss treat me as long as I live if that means having very few limited people in my life then I am ok with that.  Because honestly what's more important to me in my life now is my peace sanity health and well-being and anyone who gets in the way of that I don't want to be apart of their lives.  Hope you are well please takcare of yourself and thanks again for acknowledging me for me.

[Geniue]

Oh and also I'm glad I'm here too and you as well