Hi Josh,
I notice that your post has a slightly more positive tone to it - very pleased for you. Also pleased that the tears have slowed down; perhaps when your meds finally kick in, the anxiety and sick feeling may be more under control.
The early stages of therapy can be particularly difficult. Bringing up traumatic issues and having to confront them can be a real ordeal. I'm being honest when I tell you that the process will get easier, eventually. At some point, you will be able to discuss painful issues and feel a level of detachment from the experiences you had. It may take a while, which is why medication can be so very helpful during this early process. When the meds do kick in, they will help you feel a level of detachment so that you can talk about the pain with your psychiatrist and not become an emotional mess every time an issue is raised.
Relationships and break-ups are tough. I agree with Starwolf; healing broken relationships does take time - it changes our perception of who we are, our egos get bent out of shape and there's a lot of sifting through emotions before we can move forward with some confidence. Yes, it does sound like your wife is a little on the defensive, which is a natural reaction. Always helps not to get involved in the blame game. Two people make a relationship and two people end it. The situation is what it is and with time and the ability to be civil to each other, even though it may be difficult now, the relationship bumps may smooth out so you can still remain friends on some level, particularly for your girls.
Back to work tomorrow? I'm sure having your mates around you will make a difference; having support is so important.
Sleep well (I hope) and best wishes for a really good first day back at work.
Kind regards
lh
