PTSD attacks being triggered, struggling with study and parenting

[flowerpetals]

hi im new here im 23 engaged and have a 4 yr old i suffer from GAD, PTSD, social anxiety and panic disorder

[KaraArtist]

Welcome to the community flowerpetals,

This is a wonderful place to vent, get ideas, advice and clear your mind. I have found the people online here are wonderful, compassionate and have their own stories and experience to share and draw from. These forums and their subscribers have helped me through some tough times and I've in turn helped others.

Happy writing

See you around

KaraArtist

[Wednesday]

Hi flowerpetal's

Welcome on board. My you sound like you have a few things on your plate. This is a great forum to chat to others who are sharing some or even all of your issues.

I love little ones, I'm nuts about my 2 yearly grandson, four year olds are so adorable and you're engaged too, congratulations. Are you into wedding planning as yet?

I am guessing that some of your issues may be raising their ugly heads at the moment do you want to share a little more information about what you are going through? Even a vent is fine with us, no judgement.

Lovely to meet you!

[flowerpetals]

im not doing wedding plans as of yet as most of my family actually trigger some of my attacks so im waiting till i can handle big events as i still have trouble with birthdays. i have been through the works as a child ive been through physical abuse, emotional abuse, environmental abuse and sexual abuse i've been in and out of court rooms since i was 3 and in and out of foster homes and hospitals i finally have stability at my inlaws but i keep getting called back to court i have five younger siblings and five older step siblings i see a psychologist every 2 weeks who is currently working with me on the resentment i have towards my mother i currently study in studying a diploma in counselling but recent situations have caused set backs and a believe that i will not be able to catch up sufficiently enough for them give me an extension and keep me enrolled

[Cold_Mirror]

Welcome flowerpetals. I'm glad that you made the decision to join us. 🙂 I'm sorry that you've been through such a traumatic time. You are doing the right thing by doing
some work with a psychologist.

Please don't give up on your course just yet. I've worked in unis and TAFE as well as having studied several times. If you have a talk to them about how you're falling behind, they might be able to help you out. You would be surprised how accommodating these places can be. Mostly, they want people to succeed and finish the course. The most important thing is to talk to them sooner rather than later.

Thank you for sharing so much about yourself. It's a big step. Keep on posting - there are lots of friendly ears here at BB.

[Guest_322]

Hi Flowerpetals,

The abuse and subsequent trauma must be excruciating. PTSD is horrific; it's like the nightmare is relived time and time again.

It's so admirable that despite all your pain, you still want to help others by entering the counselling profession. You have a very big heart. And who better than someone like you who "gets it" to enter that profession?

Sadly, sometimes things and life can become a bit much and affect your studies. I like Cold_Mirror's advice to talk to the teaching staff at TAFE. I think it's something worth considering.

Much love and support.

- Dottie

[Wednesday]

Hi Flower,

I'm so sorry that you've had such tough start to life. You have certainly been through the works, it's no wonder that you are struggling. It is hard to overcome a grotty childhood but we can make some changes to make our lives better. After all it is our life and no-one else gets to dictate how we Iive our adult lives. It takes strength , which you clearly have to have survived this far.

You have been brave enough at a young age to face your past, good work and congratulations. I admire that even though you are frightened and in some ways disabled by your past you are trying to move past it.

Well done on finding a counsellor, your man and lovely inlaws. I'm pleased you have some support around you. It does sound like there is even more to this tale. a family of 11 children is huge for this day and age. You say you're called back to court too. On top of all that you have a child and are trying to study. Oh my goodness so much to do and so little time.

It would be so great to finish your course and as Cold M said the education people may be abel o help more than you think, you have good case. Can you chat to the disability officer? It's probably hard to talk to a stranger but you'll need to let them in on how hard life is for you are the moment for them to help. Mental health issues are a disability.

Just a little suggestion, feel free to ignore it, Maybe you could write a list of all the things that you are trying to accomplish at the moment and prioritise by what is the most important thing in your life to do at the moment. It may be that you are trying to do too much. It is stressful trying to come to terms with your past. Speaking of which, have you a nice GP? Have you checked whether some medication would help to make life bit easier for you?

Lastly, please know that this is just a rotten moment, your past is past and in time and your strength will shine through. There will be a day when life will be easier and you will be able to congratulate yourself on succeeding.

Take heart, here's a little hug for you. x

[flowerpetals]

i have talked to my tutor and he try to help as much as possible but the branch manager is making it difficult with strict rules of meeting deadline requirement or there is no extension i only have 3 units left but it getting to be really difficult to balance out study and home at the same time as keeping myself together

[Wednesday]

Hi,

Of course it is difficult, don't give yourself hard time. You do get to b human with all the flaws that comes along with!

If you pull out of the course how long do you get to re-enter without losing the units you have done to date? Does that make sense? If you have completed x units and take a break can you go back next semester without losing any credit you already have for the units you have completed?

A big priority has to be looking after yourself. I gather since you are clear on the mental issues you are facing you do have some medical support? What about a trip to your GP to discuss how you are feeling and see if there are any medications that would help? Don't be ashamed we all need different sorts of help. I take antidepressants and will for the rest of my life, but that's okay because I am living. Others just need to take them for a short while everyone is different.

One step at a time and you'll get there.

xx

[Wednesday]

PS. I meant to ask about your picture. It's lovely, did you design it?

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