Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_4643]

Hi all.

Sorry to hear that Bluberry & mocha delight.

mocha, if it makes you feel any better, I got a 50 (the highest score) on a K10 test, but was told I was faking it. Of course I'm not.

I've had mental health issues since I was 12 and I'm now 21

[mocha delight]

My gp wants me to do another k10 and I was only slightly depressed at first which I think it started when I was 14/15 (but definitely was full on slightly depressed by the time I was 16) I was and I’m turning 33 this year. I’m also on 2 prescription medications that has depression as a side effect but I didn’t start on them until just before or just after I turned 19 so that was not the cause of my slight depression when I was 16.

[Guest_4643]

I'm sorry to hear that mocha delight. I hope you feel better soon and you find some meds that work for you.

- Tayla

[Guest_1643]

hey blubs, maybe ur flattie had a bad day.

seemed he got upst about his itilian "rival" lol who was no rival at all and just a nice man.
Nothing wrong with looking at each other and it seems to work as flat mates so thats all good

But i dont know - does that comment sort of indicate he's interested in more, i dont know. Like if you're just commenting on a nice man.... i dont know...

I guess time will tell. Lol re the fruit for dinner. Tbh I had the same yesterday. Bit of couscous salad and a mango. But I guess your usual is to have dinner together not seperately eat fruits.
I could actually very happily eat fruit for dinner lol but thats me.

Your white chairs sound so so amazing. I love that the table is HEAVY. Solid. Centres everything. And the silver touches and white for the pots is nice. I had plants for a bit but I'm a bit over it now and have been considering fake flowers, fake plants, and think maybe it coould help.
Did you mean bedside tables for the mirrored furniture or is side tables something different, like loungeroom accessories? I need the practical storage atm, so wanted a big dresser. I have no drawers in my apartment which is leading to clutter.
I have very basic ikea malm bedsides atm. They are just there, but they are okay. Pretty sturdy and nice. I really appreciate the tip about the clean lines etc and masculine, there are some with little delicate handles that are a bit girly and maybe some have slightly different shades which have more girliness. I will def keep an eye out!!

[ecomama]

HI everyone

Blubes, I hope flattie comes home in a better mood today. Personally I think he's waiting for you to make the next move meaning I think that simple text was "a move" that night.
But IDK, what do you think?

I love your style Blubes! I couldn't maintain it at all with all these kids and pets and being a gardener an all lol... but it's so pretty!!

Sleepy how on earth do you cope with no drawers lol!
My drawers / cupboards / wardrobes are getting a minimalisation treatment atm, prepping for changing rooms.
Omg I'm throwing so much out! YAY!!!
And giving so much away too which I'm glad for too ofcourse.

Hey mocha and Tayla, how you girls doing today? Depression is a tricky thing to manage. Sometimes I've had periods of not feeling it all but then other times I can feel it waiting in the wings to swoop and it's difficult to push into the good parts of my mind and life then to get it out again. UGH. Horrible thing.

Hey those weird plastic flatpacked containers I found a few months ago, like 32 of them, Lord knows where they came from - I think demon left them here.

Anyway late last night as I was going through my shoes - YES STILL - I realised the small ones could be for SHOES! I tried a pair out in them and yep they fit perfectly.
I've always wanted those fancy shoe stackers but would never have paid for them!
I'm about to put the rest of those containers together for my shoes, just the special ones I don't wear very often.
I have no idea where they'll fit in my new bedroom but at least they'll be organised lol.

The bigger storage containers IDK, maybe to store my Winter coats in downstairs. In my new room, I'll have to have a Summer wardrobe and a Winter wardrobe - less storage space for now.
Maybe my work resources, IDK.

Well the heatwave has BEGUN here... days of it coming apparently. Erghhh.

Uncle is supposed to come tomorrow and Alexa said she's already having anxiety over it lol!
SHE won't even be here! He may postpone due to the heat, I'll see.

Better get onto it all.

Love EM

[Guest_4643]

Hey EM & all.

I wrote on my thread "hi everyone, I'm back" if anyone wants to check it out. Had such a stressful, busy & traumatic day today.

[Guest_498]

Hi Ems & Sleepy,
Flatmate was his usual self again today. I got home from the gym and he was mowing the lawn. He said hi with his normal, big cute smile. I knew he was in a better mood. I said "you look so sexy right now" (he DID lol) just wanted to .. Then & there.
Over dinner, he paid me back for yesterday. He brought up in convo a woman he saw today. Him: so I looked twice at this woman, she was nice looking. Me (rolled my eyes): And, I really wanted to hear that. Him: you jealous? Me: No, I dont get jealous. Theres many hot women around. Him: I said she was nice not hot .. youre hot. Me: blush: "Eat your dinner".
Yea Ems, I think you're right. I just can't cross the line with him though. I'll screw things up. I always do. Ive never been in a position whereby I'm stuck with someone by default after being with them. Ive always left and always my choice if I wanted to return. I can't make my move but I really want to. I REALLY want to lol. This is insane.
Sleepy, the electrician wasnt nice in personality (well he was but yea) he wasnt bad looking. He was about in his early to mid 30s as well. Wasn't as goodlooking as my flatmate but he was cute.
Ems, flatpack containers are great for shoes!! Throw out what you dont need though woman!! Declutter.
Sleepy, with plants Im pretty bad at keeping them myself!! Thats why I only buy hardy plants that require very little water & easy to maintain. On the subject of artificial plants, be careful what you buy as they can look cheap & bad. Try to stay away from them.
Blubes xx

[Guest_498]

Sleepy,
Im sorry, I thought you asked whether to buy black or mirrored bedside tables? I suggestrd mirror bedside. What colour is your bed again? From mem you said dark wood?

[Guest_1643]

Hey Blubes- I was going to buy a mirrored dresser as I'm looking for storage. They have bedsides as well this brand - they have really high tallboys, more long and wide dressers with two sets of drawers side by side, and the bedsides... I'm kinda scared to add anything to the room that will dominate or mess things up - it's very peaceful now but I need storage. I only have a cupboard with hanging space - no drawers at all. But its so huge I thought I could even buy an ikea storage and put it inside the cupboard (hard to explain, but it would work - the cupboard is big and installed in the house but is just basically empty space inside with a rack to hang things like dresses).

There is no bedhead or anything it's just an ensemble base and I have dark brown (nearly black) ikea malm bedside on one side, books on the other, an a sleek retro chair in black in the corner which works well. The floor boards are the colour of an almond a little darker. The mirrored furniture do have black, white, silver and then this colour called "smoky" which is like a smoky, darker silver. They have a chic look - is it hollywood regency? Like a hotel? clean maybe.

[Guest_1643]

re the flattie i think maybe Em was right too and with the text message.

Has he said anything else since then?

I don't know much how it works living with someone you're attracted to tbh, i've only heard about that from others.

My male housemate I was not attracted to becaus he was a horrible person. Other than that I've never lived with a partner or had a long-term male housemate, I lived alone or with women. I've heard of it working sometimes - I don't think you would mess anything up or antyhing like that at all - I just don't know what happens when you're already flatmates... What do u think?