Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_1643]

Hey Am strong - welcome to the forums

that sounds very stressful having to deal with the side effects of new medication

This is a lovely thread here of people and there are lots of nice people around this place who won't judge yu at all

I saw a disgusting psychiatrist who said stuff like you've mentioned - and it's really understandable it made you feel down. The truth is that PTSD is very delicate and sensitive and not all mental health or even health professionals are trauma sensitive.

It sounds so hard what you are going through. Would you cnsider going to another psychiatrist for a second opinion?

[Sophie_M]

Dear Am strong,

We’re so grateful to have you reach out to our community and are so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming . We hope that you find our forums to be a safe and supportive space to talk through your thoughts and feelings. Our community is here for you. 

We hope you know that there is always help available to you, whether it's from our professional mental health counsellors Beyond Blue (available 24/7/365 on 1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).
Keep checking back in with us whenever you feel up to it. 
 
 
 

[mocha delight]

How are you all today? Well I have to say my sleep has been amazing since my gp upped my prescription sleeping medication in fact my sleep has been so amazing I think I’d make a log jealous 😂. As for how I’m going I had a very long exhausting day yesterday, did a lot of walking the major soreness from walking, felt like the pain it was playing musical chairs and today feeling like I can feel muscles I never knew I have. Not to mention yesterday was mostly one of those stressful days so I don’t know if my erratic all over the place very low/down mood I have today is still just from the exhaustion of all the walking I did and/or the stress.

[Guest_4643]

Hello mocha delight and Sleepy.

I was thinking of going on a sleeping med, I need something, my sleeping is atrocious.

Am Strong, sorry I don't have any advice for you.

- Tayla

[ecomama]

Blubes - dearest most beautiful girl. We're here for you. And I'm so glad you're here for US with interior design tips! Otherwise my house would look like a direct reflection of my PTSD addled brain LOLOL! Omg I found my most FAVOURITE white doona cover and brand new white sheets with satin lace across the top (I thought ex had stolen) and they're on my bed now and look GORGEOUS!

I vacuumed thoroughly last night, my carpet is the last in the top storey and I CAN'T WAIT to rip it all up soon!

SO I came into my bedroom after work, drove home feeling quite depressed, then walked into my room and HALLELUJAH! lol... the perfectly made bed (don't think I have it this way ALL the time peeps lol) reflected the sunshine off of it.

So peaceful.

ok not QUITE so peaceful as the dog, cat and chickens were calling to be fed lol...

But I hugged my boys in the driveway as they all left for work. Yvette is already at work too.
No kids at home which is far more often than not but I never know WHEN.

I googled Georg Jensen candlesticks OMG they are DIVINE!

I'd have to choose a SPOT in the house before I bought something like that lol.

Love you darling
EM

[ecomama]

Hi Sleepy and a wave to Tay Tay lol

I'll talk about Angelo and BF on my thread lol... I get confused ALL the time!

We jump from online loungeroom to online loungeroom so often lol.

It's lovely to have you all in so many rooms!

Love EM

[ecomama]

Hi Am strong

And you ARE strong.

Welcome to the forums!

I hope you feel supported by everyone here. I encourage you to begin your own thread to get specific feedback and more people will be able to see your post!

But I know that Bluberry would welcome you to open up here whenever you want to also.

About that MH Professional ..... seriously, that person was saying ALOT more about themselves than they were about you. Ignore.
Quite a ridiculous comment when you think about it, besides the fact it should never have been said! But YOU are constantly working in the field that gave you PTSD... so it's like them saying a soldier in battle should be fine receiving Counselling whilst in the battle field.

It's like comparing apples and oranges.
Shouldn't be done.

I had to stop after 5 sessions with a trauma psych BECAUSE she had no idea about Domestic Violence... but she thought she was an expert on everything.
She wasn't.

There are SO MANY therapies that can help us suffering from PTSD but not all suit everyone.
There are SO MANY psychologists that can help people and not others.

ONE thing severely overlooked is SELF-CARE (thanks for the rub Sleepy21 lol).
I was even told to do "radical self-care" a few days ago.

It's HARD to do!
But we must do it and this can boost all other support / information / practices we put into our lives.

I hope you're okay hearing this.... once you find certain things that work eg exposure therapy etc etc... I believe that 90-95% of the work is on us.

So yes you DO feel like your life is not your own NOW... but when you get some therapies that begin to heal you, you will be able to take back ownership of your thoughts etc.

Just know there isn't a quick fix.

Love EM

[Am_strong]

Thank you so all so much for the support, I feel I should have been on this forum long before now and things would have been a lot better. I am taking it one day at a time now and focusing more on things that have worked and the achievements I have made. Thanks once more.

[Guest_4643]

Hi Am Strong, I'm sorry I couldn't offer you advice. I've never been in a relationship so that's why, it's nothing personal. But I do care.

Hi all by the way.

- Tayla

[Guest_498]

Hi ALL,
Just logged on .. Been a lil busy but I will get to all threads. Hope everyones doing ok.
Hi Am Strong, we're all VERY supportive here so you can vent, tell us how youre feeling etc. Absolutely NO judgements here, we've got zero time for that. :-)
Just taking a quick break from stomach crunches - oouchie today.
My flattie ... Flattie, dear flatties driving me 🔥🔥 I don't know what to do with him. I knew this would be a bad idea... Chemistrys bit intense. We keep looking at one another. I can see him from my bedroom and when Im on my bed, he can see me. I do look, I cant help that. He does the same.
So he came home from work last night in a foul mood, not his happy self. I was in kitchen. He asked how my day was. Me: ok. Had two electricians in to fix the light. Him: two men to fix one light? Me: yeh, I thought it was bit much too. Him: so its working now? He looked at certificate whilst sitting at barstool and said "the surnames Italian. Me: what? The electrician? Yeh, hes Italian. He was nice. Him: THAT look and Italian dismissive hand gesture. Got off stool, about to walk upstairs. Me: whats wrong? Him: You think I wanted to come home and hear about a cute Italian man? Me: I didn't say he was cute, I said hes nice. I meant his personality. Him: I knew what you meant. And walked up the stairs. There goes dinner. He remained upstairs. I had fruits for dinner. He came down to eat. Lol. He had fruits as well. Him: want some blueberries? Me: no. Him: you surr. Me: yup. Me: Im goung to relax in bed.
Later in the evening at bedtime: He text messaged me: hey. Me: hey whats up? Him: i cant sleep. Me: what would you like me to do about it? Him (took long time to respond): nothing, good night. Me: night.