Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_498]

You were true to your words in not calling him. Stick to your guns, hopefully he'll get the msg and NOT take you for granted.
No, no American joining force here. Nice enough but aint my cup of tea bbg.
Bed now. Speak tomoz.

[ecomama]

Thanks yes. I usually keep my word.

What does "bbg" mean?

Upset tummy, I thought I replied here but I replied on my thread.
SO much discomfort. Could have been the Vietnamese food and or the afternoon tea. IDK prolly added stress of Uncle coming and prep for Builder for days.

Happy for the cool change weather wise! It was so darned hot here yesterday. I left the air con on cool all night. Can turn it off now. Nice and cool.

Will try and sleep more. It's more comfortable to sit up than lay down.

IDK I'm not stressed about bf but reflecting on our r/ship quite a bit in quiet moments.
It would be SO much easier to see how things would go if he lived nearby.
But we've gotten along really well when we're together.

I'm just finding the relentless phone calling tedious and repetitive.
He wants to stay on the phone ALL DAY LONG (it's his night time) and doesn't understand that it's during the active part of my day when I can get stuff done.
If it was during MY night time and no one else was around, I'd prolly enjoy the call too.

Timed calls work better for me. I offered a 1h timed call the other day and he kept going beyond that time... I just pulled him up and said cheerily "Time to go, it's more than an hour!" but when he did the pulling back in to talk more (as he does) I just said "Yep talk later" and ended the call.

My alarm doesn't seem to work well if I'm on a call, I've tried that lol.

I'll try to get more sleep.

[Guest_498]

Hey Ems,

bbg means baby girl. bbb=baby boy.

Relationships are hard Ems, and I know he's great when you're together. He wants to talk at a time when you're busy, together with dancing around the idea of living with you in Australia, sound like he wants things done on his terms. I wonder whether he's wasting your time in this regard. I was manipulated for 4 years once, with a promise of doing something and he never did. Wasted years. Just saying. I'm not saying he is - it's something to be mindful of.

Blubes.

[monkey_magic]

Bought some lush coconut yoghurt and am eating it with loads of frozen blueberries.

Just thought you should know.

🍇🍇🍇🥥🥥🥥

[Guest_498]

Hey hey,

I'm just online atm ... Got heater on, nice & toasty. Yumm coconut yoghurt and blueberries mmmm. How are you?

[monkey_magic]

Hey,

Yeah just plodding along. Booked in to get foils done tomorrow since my regrowth is outta control. All this talk about hair earlier on. I'm paying $134.

The wait time for the dye to process is long at this place...gets a bit boring sitting waiting waiting. Then the toner... waiting...

Was going to go for a swim today but it's overcast. Was expecting better weather.

I feel like such a bludger hey. I'm a casual at work, still getting job keeper which means I'm not working very often...been this way since March. Been thinking of studying something to fill in my time... I'll figure it out.

Be great if I did more exercise...I used to live at gyms.

Plumbers here ATM making a lot of noise unblocking the drain, we hope.

Well enjoy your day everyone Xxx

[Guest_498]

134.00 for foils is good. Two thumbs up. Go Movie star!! Youll look soo pretty. 🙂
YES go STUDY!! What would you like to study? I think you'll be good within the mental health industry. Like mental health nurse or something. You will know what to do, how to treat ppl. We need ppl like you with tons of lived experience, compassion and knowledge.

[ecomama]

monkey definitely study if you find something interesting! Why not. Get over the bludger thought lol... it's there for a REASON. I'm happy you're benefiting.

I need to send JUST a bit of our warm weather down there... AND a cheap but great backyard hairdresser lol!

I get dye, foils, cut & blow wave for $80 but like I said she didn't charge me at all throughout the years of Courts.... I felt really bad but she said there was NOTHING else she could help us all with so it was her contribution to my Court efforts lol.

It did look lovely. I'm so grateful. And grateful for her mum being there to help me with Yvette's disclosures and recovery.

Yeah bf... I don't think of him wasting my time. I know he wants to be with me... he's invested so much of everything to prove it... I'd be happy talking with him once a week.
It's not like I want to go out and meet anyone else. I don't.
He can't move out here until after he retires, we already knew that.
He'd prefer us all to move over there LOL! America wasn't attractive to move to BEFORE and it gets less and less with each passing day! FOR SURE.

BF will put my cabin plans / designs for Approvals all together for me.
I just need to send him complicated measurements lol! Maybe later.

Anyway the Builder is nearly finished ALL the shelving!

It looks freaking amazing.

Uncle has pulled down an entire bottom storey wall omg and we've worked out the design to enclose the whole porch to become a room. I'm really happy with it. It'll feel like an indoor / outdoor room looking on to the back yard and outdoor pizza oven. Very pretty. Louvre windows down there (which I'll have to buy eeek) and a sliding door with glass panels my Uncle is giving to us for free.
Plus all the timbers and blueboard etc I'll have to buy.
He's re-using bricks and materials I already have or that he has. I'm saving minimum $10 000.

Gardener tomorrow if it's a fine day.

I'm doing okay. Was triggery this morning but it settled well. LOTS of exposure therapy happening lol!

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Great to hear the progress of the shelves!! sooo good. You sound happy, that's for sure. awesome, awesome.

So the American guy asked me last night and I thought I'd ask you guys. "Do you believe everything happens for a reason"? I've thought about this question in the past many times - and, yes everything does happen for a reason I think. I'm a bit black and white when it comes to philosophy (not good) but what do you think?

[monkey_magic]

Not sure what I'll maybe study just yet. I'd prefer to work as an advocate if I was in mental health. The nurses do what the psychiatrists say and it would be triggering for me. I'd rather help people out of the system or help them avoid getting caught up in the whole shomozzle.

Making progress Ems, love your work and yes please pass over that weather and hairdresser.

Do things happen for a reason?
I suppose. What I went through has put me on a path I wouldn't have normally gone down. Now I'm passionate about supporting and educating others going through it. So that would be the reason.

There's another good saying- things happen for a season, a reason or a lifetime... something like that.

Things we go through give us knowledge, spiritual/ emotional lessons...we can then choose to pass these on. We are students and we are teachers of life.