Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[Guest_498]

Yum!!! The salmon, mash & broccolini souonds delish!! Sooo good. I'll have to get meself to the supermarkets. lol

I'll touch base soon

[ecomama]

Hi Bluberry, monkey_magic, mocha and all else reading HI!!!

I think BBers are missing out on some interesting recipes ladies??

I started the 'Easy peasy recipe' thread lol... and I would LOVE you to add any nice ones you cook!

I really hope you all feel better soon. I think of each of you alot, send my Prayers and keep on with housework lol.

Shortly I'll post on my PTSD thread. Yesterday and today I found so many things that ex did and I still cannot believe this creature.
I'm still shocked... I know nothing would be beneath it but the time, energy and thinking it put into the damage is beyond belief.
I said to my bf today that if a woman told me even some of what it did (if it was her..) I would find it almost impossible to believe.

Bf said "no you wouldn't, not now after it was done to you and the kids".

My point being.... I believe you all.
If no one else on earth believes you, YOU know.
But I believe you too.

Love EM xxx

[Guest_498]

Heya Em,

Naww, esay peesy recipe - that sound cuutee!!! Thanks for your prayers, sweetheart. Monkey and I both need it. 🙂 And my thoughts are with you through your troubles also.

I'll check into your thread soon. And, yes I can just imagine what your ex did - you told me (in explicitly) in not too many words about him. I'll support you there.

Love xx

[Guest_498]

Monkey,

Dinner was delish. The skin was crispy, and mash had loads of butter in it - rich, but just the way I like it. Thank you.

[Guest_498]

No, the people that closed their doors and got involved in the scam were not friends, to begin with. That's why I've severed all ties. It made me think just how hard it is to have a true friend. I'm left with none. It gets pretty lonely without a soul to celebrate your birthday, Christmas, holidays, etc. It has made me feel separated from society and humans. How could these so-called-professionals do this to a depressed person? How could my mum do something as cruel as this? I hate her. I can honestly look her in the eyes and tell her that I hate her. She means nothing to me.

[ecomama]

I hear you Bluberry.

My mother was taken away by police decades ago. I've been NC ever since.

I don't hate her.

I think your events are so recent that your emotions are still justifiably running high.

Aim for "nothing" - not love nor hate. Nothing.

Over time you can build your new tribe. Not one of blood but one of mutual respect and trust.
It's happening already.

How's your flatmate going?

(Looks like we're getting a new person staying with us more than she does now... like full time soon).

Love EM

[Guest_498]

Ems ... 😢😢
I do feel as if I hate her. At time I tell myself that it wasnt her fault - that she got brainwashed by my narc sister for so many years, she didn't know any better (I moved out of home since 18, so my mum doesn't know me, she only thinks she knows me from what the narcissist been telling her), but other times I do blame her because she should've bought into the bull dust! Things were terrible when I returned to live with her as an adult, it reminded me why I left in the first place. We simply don't get along and our values would clash!!
Within time, I will try to be neutral as you've put it, but yeah, after all her mental abuse and then the drugging, I feel as if I can't forgive her. I do hate her, Ems.

[Guest_498]

Flatemates going well. Hes moved in tonight. Had a bit of a chat, tea and watched bit of tele. He seems nice and respecrful enough.
Oh wow, another person?? Could you possibly fit another person in? Itll be a full house, wouldnt it? You, your fiance, daughter & 2 sons? Thats a lot of people!! But company's good to have. I like it anyway.
Xx

[mocha delight]

How are you both today blueberry & ecomama? Sorry I’ve been a bit distant since the 28th of August as my mind has been all over the place and my mood so very up and down lately. I got a quiz from the psychologist I’m seeing to do and my mum wanted to disagree that it should of been kind of done over this week just not long gone even though I just got the quiz today, that I should have it done by this Friday so I can get it back to her asap basically, if there was a timeline of when the psychologist would need the quiz back by and basically asking me how this psychologist & how the process should go ect ect ect plus all this other questions I don’t know the answers to. But I think I should answer the quiz basically based on this week not last week and that since my appointment is not until 1pm on the 9th that if I get the quiz back to her by Monday or Tuesday the latest that should be ok. Any thoughts and opinions about basing the quiz on this week & not last week and when I should get it to the psychologist before my appointment would be greatly appreciated as I’m a complete newbie to all this ie doing these tests/everything to do with seeing a psychologist.

[Guest_498]

Hi Mocha,
If the psychologist didn't stipulate the start and end date, there's no harm asking him or her to clarify. Belt them an email to ascertain when theyd like it based on - last week or this week? This way, you'll be on track and eliminates any confusion and more disagreements between you & your mum.
I hope this helps