Introduction - Hello Everyone

[Guest_498]

Hi all,

I'm new to this forum. I'd like to introduce myself. I'm 40 years of age, female. My interests include music (any genre), reading a great novel, watching comedy, Restuaranting, and learning new things. I suffer from depression and anxiety. Depression feels very lonely for me. I'd like to reach out for some support. Thank you.

[monkey_magic]

Thanks for caring about how I feel.

The me before the forced drugging would always be really good. Now I feel anxious, tired and drowsy. It's hard to keep my eyes open. I'm a far cry from who I once was.

To be honest I don't like living like this nor do I want to.
A huge problem is I'm not being taken seriously when I say I can't handle the drugs.

I feel like they just don't care.
Afterall I'm probably put in the same category as a criminal. And I'm far from it.

How are you going? How's the depression?

I spent most of today with fam for my mum's bday...too tired to be that social.

My life just isn't what it was 😟

[Guest_498]

Dear sweet monkey magic,

You brought me to tears when I read this. There are no words to describe what you are going through. I care so much and there are no words to express that I genuinely understand your lived experiences. I do understand because I experienced snippets of it too. You know my story and you understand the level of fear, trauma, and force they've subjected upon me. They head-nicked me and treated me like a criminal also. I got treated like human excrement. I still get paranoid and still anxious. My depression spiraled out of control after what they did to me - I can't even edit my letter of complaint without feeling the pain. That's how bad it has impacted me.

I wouldn't cope nor want to take the insidious, toxic meds either, and, who want to live in this manner? Noone.

My depression today isn't too bad - we had great weather in Melbourne today and I spent a few hours with my flatmate, helping him assemble his bed 🙂 Great to hear you've spent time with fam 🙂 xx

[Guest_498]

My life isn't great, either. I dare say you have a better one 🙂 You have your family and friends. You have support. You have a social life, you have caring and loving people around you. I haven't. They've taken and alienated everyone in my support network from me. I don't know what was said, but all doors shut on me, people ignored me, one support even said things like "you're aggressive" for reasons unbeknownst to me. Of course, I knew what was going on, I'm not silly. Social inclusion is really important for mental health and isolation is devasting!! I have none of the above, sadly. 😞

[monkey_magic]

Hi,

Hopefully your flatmate helps with the social inclusion.
It would be really hard living under the covid restrictions where you are for any kind of social life as well. Once things have settled your social life should hopefully pick up.
If all the doors closed I don't think those people were solid supports to start with. It's amazing how easily ppl can turn away. I've had many ppl come and go in my life over the years for whatever reason. I do have a pretty solid family though so I guess I'm lucky in that sense.
But I'm prob going to be moving states pretty far away in the near future so I'll be starting again.

I didn't mean to make you cry with my last post. I also know the pain U r describing because I feel it everyday. How drastically life can change through no fault of your own.

I was watching 4 corners. Ppl with serious mental illnesses weren't getting the help they needed and then we're committed crimes. I got all the help I didn't need and I'm sane. So I essentially was made to take the bed and meds that someone else so desperately needed. That really doesn't sit well. I've been around all the wrong mental health professionals and need to make it right.

I should go on 4 corners and have my say. " I'm sorry your severely mentally ill loved one, didn't get the help they needed, it's because the incompetent mental health team gave it to me instead" and I work and am normal, but they are weird and think theyre's something wrong when there isn't.

I'm really shaking my head.

Who knows how many crimes could have been prevented if others took my place in the mental health wards.

They're just shocking and have stolen my identity.

I really hope they do something for you and there crimes don't go unnoticed.
I've been thinking of seeing a top psychiatrist to clear my name. Someone actually worthy of my time and money. So far I've been around too many of the wrong ones.

[geoff]

Hello Bluberry and Mocha delight and those above me, Netflix does have a 'try for a month free of charge', just as Stan and other networks, there are a ton of different movies and the best part, there are NO ads.

With the Health Complaints Commissioner yo can ring 1300 582 113 between 9am and 5pm, Monday to Friday or fill in an online complaints form.

You can try 'hcc.vic.gov.au › contact' in your search browser.

Let us know how you get on.

My best.

Geoff.

[Guest_498]

Heya Geoff,

Hope you're enjoying your weekend. I spent the day with my flatmate again, just doing some gardening and pottering around inside the home.

I have lodged many complaints to the HCC about several matters and healthcare professionals involved in my case. My cases were referred to the mental health complaints commissioner (no action) and DHHS (I never heard from them). At the time, when I made complaints and reported to Victoria Police, I didn't have a full understanding (I still don't know all details) as to what they did to me not did I have evidence with me. I have evidence now upon receiving my patient files from a medical clinic. That is why I'm taking my chances with the Victorian Ombudsman & the media. As soon as I complete my letter, I'll send that off, together with all evidence at my disposal. Whether they investigate or not, I'm just seeking to put the organisation on notice to protect others. 🙂

[Guest_498]

Monkey_magic,

Yes, the 4Corners report was very sad. It highlights the desperation of these people who truly need help. I don't blame them. It's sad that it got to the point that it did due to the system's neglect and inadequacies.

I spent some time with my flatmate doing stuff around the house. It was fun. He's nice. So far soo good.

Please get a second opinion and clear your name, I'll be doing the same within due course. It'll be good for you to be rid of them. You need to rebuild like I'm trying to. Get yourself away from toxic people if you can. I'm literally starting a new life again from the bottom up. It'll take a while though.

You didn't bring me to tears because you've upset me or anything, just to be clear. I felt for you and I hear you. I felt despondent and angry at the same time because you can't break free, no matter how much you beg. It makes me angry. 🙂

xx

[monkey_magic]

Hi Bluberry,

I've shed many years myself for the same reason. Thanks for being caring and compassionate. ATM I feel sick, I'm laying down thnx to the meds...how can any sensible person want me going through this? Will do my best to clear my name.

That's really good that you and the flatmate r getting along.
I'll also be building a new life for myself in another state where I don't know anyone. I can't wait to live on my own, have my own space. Here U r wanting to be around ppl and here I am wanting to live alone lol.

Haven't left the couch all day. Can't wait to see a new " thoughtful" psychiatrist that cares about what I'm going through and does something about it. I want to actually live my life not be sick and tired all the time.

Glad U had fun today and spent it with a nice person.

🍀

[Guest_498]

Good girl 🙂 I hope your appointment goes well. Let me know how you go if you want to. Lol yea, I like being around good people. I don't like mean people. I've never been good at being a bitch lol. I'm only one when I have to be, when I need to stick up for myself. Rest up, try to detract your mind from this somehow if you can. Any suggestions for my dinner tonight? I have carbonara the other night with salad. It was yummy yum yum.

[monkey_magic]

I'm sure to keep you updated;

Dinner suggestions;

Creamy mash, broccolini,salmon with crispy skin and hollandaise sauce.

Steak cooked to your liking, creamy mash or chips & veg

Your favourite Chinese or thai dish

Or,
Just go to menu log and there will be hundreds of meals to choose from!