Ok, here's the thing - I am very sensitive to noise, and can not tolerate loud noises at all. I don't like revving motorcycles/ traffic in general (really, who does?) and screaming children. It puts me in a state of fear where my heart races, I shake uncontrollably and I tend to retreat.
In my childhood and teenagehood, I was exposed to a lot of loud noise whether I wanted it or not. Yelling teachers, screaming and out of control kids, etc.
Now as an adult, I still hear loud noises I can not tolerate, like traffic. But recently I've thinking about it a lot and getting worried, and now everyday noises like making food gets me frightened and upset. For instance, today I accidently dropped a fork on a table while preparing lunch. While it wasn't excessively and unpleasantly loud, it startled me and I jumped, thinking the noise was going to escalate to something louder and Satan-like.
I also have a sister who is autistic. She is prone to meltdowns every second day, and gets very loud in a frightening, heart jolting way. She also watches horror games that involves a lot of noise, and I think she picks up certain behaviours from them, even though she is an adult that shouldn't be so impressible.
As a result, I think I may suffer from PTSD as a result of exposure to intentional loud noise directed at me. Now I'm getting fearful of everyday noises, and am so timid that I move awkwardly to avoid making even the most subtle of noise.
