Hi BOC64 and welcome to our forums
It's good you've found your way to our community and have reached out. I see you've popped into other's threads - Thank you for starting your own thread and sharing your story. It is interesting. I too have PTSD, anxiety and depression from childhood abuse and trauma. That sense of falling though is not one that I've experienced previously. Though, it is well established that people with PTSD, anxiety and depression do not all experience the same things, nor does the treatment one person have necessarily work for another.
You say - I have on quite a few occasions woken in fright from feeling like I am falling from a great height. I avoid exposed heights as I am not sure what I will do and I wonder if these two things are related.
There could be a number of things that are related to your avoidance of heights and your waking in fright. It would be good to go to a professional to talk through things. I'm not a professional and nor do I know all your story, so interpreting the things you are experiencing is not something I can do.
Since you have a diagnosis, I wonder if you regularly see your doctor and a health professional (e.g. psychologist or psychiatrist)?
For my own recovery, I have seen psychologists specialising in trauma, especially childhood abuse for over 9 years now. Recovery takes time, it doesn't happen after one or two visits, or even a year. I still wake in fright, especially if someone wakes me. It takes ages for my heart to settle. My story took time to unfold. My psychologist likened it to peeling the layers off an onion. Bit by bit, very slowly. When I found everything that was under the layer, it's no wonder I did it slowly. Had I removed it in one sitting, I would have ended up in hospital for a long time.
Hope some of this helps BOC
Kind regards
PamelaR
