Trapped in supported accommodation

[kanga_brumby]

I have various people on my team supposedly helping through my depression, and other issues I have. They requested I go into a care facility for a one month stay. Which I agreed to fully expecting to return home about one month after. As soon as I mover in to the place there attitudes changed. All of a sudden I had to stay in the supported accommodation. Because I was not going to be supported in my home. Even though the support I need is available from various agencies. Around Melbourne by various counsels or privet agencies. Providing attendant care and home help. I believe I should be eligible for funding for disability. I have raised this with the people who are my advisers. But get caned every time I am not consulted. About the decision I am told just sit back do as we say. When your ready we will help more then. The plan i am not consulted on it's not working it's just stagnating. My family are no help. I am that fed up where I am. I am rely contemplating ending it all my life has no meaning in here. Just a worthless piece of meat that gets treated like a 3 year old. I know a warehouse full of stuff. That no one can now use. I cannot help anyone in here not even myself I'm not aloud.

Kanga

[kanga_brumby]

CMF, SL every thing is fine I am incredibly safe. Safer now than I have been for a while. It's just I feel I need a break. A clean break, no coming back in for a quickey then back out again. Just walk away and come back in fresh. With all new problems all new jokes and laughs . As I said you guys have helped me through some dark times, I am doing fine now room for improvement but not bad.

[CMF]

Ok Kanga, I totally understand, time to focus on you.

I will miss you so much and am a bit teary and lost.

I hope when you come back you are back in your home with the support you deserve and that things sort themselves out. I wish you the best for your son, your children and your health.

I wish you a very Happy Father's Day for you are an outstanding Dad always putting your children first no matter what.

I'll really miss you Kanga, look after yourself and hope to meet up again someday.

CMF XXX

[Guest_3712]

Thanks for letting us know you are ok

Things will certainly be quiet around here without you

Hope this tims away gives you the strength and focus you need to take care of yourself and children

Be kind to yourself

Stressless

[Quercus]

Hi Kanga,

Hope I'm not too late to say I will miss you but if this is what you need then I am happy that you are putting your needs first.

Thankyou for the many many laughs and for creating your garden which was the moment for me when the forums felt like home. It won't be the same here without you and if you ever feel like visiting we'll all be here with open arms welcoming you home.

Take care of yourself please Kanga.

[Guest_1055]

I know we did not talk a lot on here Kanga, only every now and then. But I want you to know that I have read many posts that you have written. The serious ones about your life in the aged care facility, the times when you were struggling very much, what was happening with your two children, how much you loved your precious wife, to the other posts, the posts that often helped me to smile, even when I was feeling sad. And I loved trying to beat you into last place on the killer thread just this week. It was so fun.

Thankyou Kanga. Here is some virtual balloons, a mass of them. Take care.

shell

[blondguy]

Hey Kanga

You are an inspiration to so many people on the forums....and yes...really...

I am only your Uncle Paul

I really hope you can leave your membership open without terminating it.

You are a gift to Beyond Blue and the forum family Kanga

I sincerely hope you can reconsider....if you wish to of course....

Uncle Paul......... (manhug for you Peter if thats okay)

[Croix]

Dear Kanga~

I'm one of so very many who is going to be at a complete loss without you here. The impact you've made on our lives is enormous. I've often quickly scanned these threads just to see what you are up to, mostly without posting, just being refreshed.

It's probably not very flattering to be called 'glue' but you've held a large part of this place together with a mess of fun, a pinch of wisdom and whole load of care.

I hope you reach a happy place, all accommodation sorted - but return anyway

Croix

[CMF]

I understand Kanga. You had me worried talking about not feeling well and lighting a candle etc.

Take care of you and your children. We will always be here.

CMF x

[Guest_3712]

Hi Kanga

Just echoing CMF and Croix

Look after you and your family

loved reading and chatting to you

Stressless

[kanga_brumby]

I am so tired going to various departments and agencies for help to get referred to another department or agency. You go through three or four of these. Then you hop on the merry go round. You keep getting them saying go here, been there, go there, they told me to come to you. The only thing open to me is the NDIS. From what I have heard that’s not working either, it’s a mess.
I am still in an old age home with dementia people all around. At least the worst cases are in another area. They had me in there for a while. I am usually a fairly brave man but in there I was scared. My family never visited. Plus I forbade my children from coming to see me. As I did not want to expose them to dementia. What I saw in there still sends shivers up my spine. Grown adults dropping their pants in front of all and relieving themselves. My siblings expect me to live with people like that. Some of the staff sometimes talk to me as if I am 4-5 years old. Because they are used to talking to other residence like that. Because that’s how that resident gets the information in. But they will either not tell me anything or every five minutes someone is telling me the same thing that I told them that morning.
My family over the years have gently pushed me away from them whenever one of them has been in hospital. Or need help at their home and called me. I always came a running as fast as I could get there. I would drop everything. They cannot spend five minutes with me even at Christmas time. So my good old dad would be spinning in his grave right along with my mother. They would have their tent set up right beside the pearly gates note books in hand right foot a tapping away with that look you know the one the look that says “your in deep deep s%$#^&^& trouble” I know I have done what is expected of me. I’m safe I have done good

Kanga