Struggling to go on

[Tess2]

Life is being really hard for me and troubles keep compounding. I cannot face wading through what is needed to move forward I feel isolated and alone. I have people who care but I think they can be overloaded with my despair and it can be a burden. There seem to be obstacles all along the way.

Two years ago I lost my job. A career of 50 years. I am 66 and have no partner. I have not coped well with this loss and now have significant financial problems too. I have to sell my home. Pay off my mortgage and buy a new place. I live with my son who is very caring but I have suppported him financially and emotionally through the family court. His ex is trying to remove him from his daughters life. I feel I have reached my retirement years with very little and no joy. Depression has been a big part of my life. But I have managed. Now I also have severe anxiety. It paralyses me. And panic attacks. I don’t know how to do each day.

[Lee lee 73]

Are you ok dear Tess?❤

Love Lee

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

How are you, truly? I hope I'm not bothering you. I'm getting my car serviced and so am in a cafe having a coffee thinking it would be cool if you could join me xx

Love Lee xx

[Tess2]

Hi lee, I would love to join you

no you don’t bother me at all. I love it.

unfortunately on th 30 March I had a bad fall and ended up in hospital for several days. I have a broken wrist. I also had a badly bruised face and a brain injury. I am ok now but very tired. Other than that I am ok and trying to focus on the positives.

How are you?

tess

[Ggrand]

Hello Dearest Tess,

Oh no, Tess are you okay now..I know you say you are, Your poor wrist..is it still in plaster?...Im so sorry Tess, Brain injury?..has it all completely settled now, and your face, was it badly bruised..

Sleep as much as you need to Tess, It helps heal our body and soul...Good girl, focusing on your positives..I know how hard that is to do...Youre doing a really good job..even if you can’t see it...

Im quietly sitting next to you tonight dearest friend if that’s okay..🤗..sending you my love, care and some hugs..💜🌈🤗..

Grandy..

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy,

thank you for your kindness. You sitting with me would be great. Yes my wrist will be in plaster for a while it is very difficult to do anything

the Brain injury was a bleed. But it was small and decreased in size. I am ok. But feel vulnerable.

tess

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

Oh my goodness Tess so sorry to hear about your fall and your injuries. I was getting concerned about you. I sincerely hope you are resting dear friend. Be kind to yourself Tess.

Thinking of you Tess

Love Lee

[Ggrand]

Happy Easter Tess..

I’m just calling in to give you a basket full of Easter goodies..some chocolate eggs, chocolate bunnie, some flowers and a little crystal jar full of faith...Tess hun..when your feeling like your not able to go one..Just open your little crystal jar and it will remind you that we all have faith in you.,and your stronger then you think and you are not your depression..you are so much more..

I hope you have a good day and are beginning to heal..

Grandy....

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

I just wanted to pop in and ask if you are ok? I know you haven't been well. You have been in my thoughts Tess.

Love Lee xx

[Tess2]

Hello Dear Lee,

thank you for calling in and asking after me. I have seen that you have been struggling somewhat. I think it is great that you hang in there and keep trying.

yes have been , well not unwell exactly but hurt after a bad fall. I am now recovering from a badly broken arm It is out of the cast now, and I am having therapy for it, but it is restricted in movement and I get quite a bit of pain . I have been told to expect arthritis in the wrist. I already have it in the hand so I am not thrilled about this. After the fall which was at the end of March, I did not feel well for a long time. I also had a head injury and was very tired. However I am starting to feel better now and get more energy for life.

i would love to get some work, but am scared of rejection and failing. The depression and anxiety are still very real and I struggle, but I am managing to achieve some little thing each day.

I am not seeing friends, but keep in touch with a few.

How are you.? I do hope you are feeling not to bad and finding joy

tess

[Lee lee 73]

Hello dear Tess,

That's not good about having another fall and a broken arm. You've been through alot lately, mentally and physically. Do you happen know why the falls are occurring? I do hope things start to get better for you Tess. It's good to hear you are starting to get some energy for life.

You have been wanting to find work for a while haven't you Tess. I understand how the fear of rejection holds us back. I know this is a lame suggestion (especially if we're not in a good head space) but sometimes volunteering can open a few doors, in more ways than one -'gaining confidence and hearing about jobs through word of mouth. I know anxiety is another hurdle.... Just something to think about.

Thank you for replying Tess. It was so good hearing from you. Please stay in touch my good friend.

I'm going ok. These new meds seem to help a great deal. I don't like being on them though.

Please take good care dear Tess.

Love always

Lee xx