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Life is being really hard for me and troubles keep compounding. I cannot face wading through what is needed to move forward I feel isolated and alone. I have people who care but I think they can be overloaded with my despair and it can be a burden. There seem to be obstacles all along the way.
Two years ago I lost my job. A career of 50 years. I am 66 and have no partner. I have not coped well with this loss and now have significant financial problems too. I have to sell my home. Pay off my mortgage and buy a new place. I live with my son who is very caring but I have suppported him financially and emotionally through the family court. His ex is trying to remove him from his daughters life. I feel I have reached my retirement years with very little and no joy. Depression has been a big part of my life. But I have managed. Now I also have severe anxiety. It paralyses me. And panic attacks. I don’t know how to do each day.
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Hey Tess, just wondering how you are going. Your last post makes sense to me - I am less anxious when I am distracted with a task too. In fact it's a coping mechanism for me, which like most coping mechanisms, can go a bit haywire (like Mandy, I would be aiming for perfection in every box - forgetting that it's just going to be unpacked again!). However things are going for you (good, bad, steady), know that we'll be here with understanding and companionship. Lots of luck to you Tess.
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Hi Mandy, anon and stromcloudz,
i am packing away, the container has arrived and my son has started loading boxes. We have broken the back of the packing I think just a lot of glassware to pack and the pantry then final things after the furnitures go. I still don’t see it all finishing and in the mornings my anxiety goes sky high.. once I am out of here I think I will be more settled. I can take time to unpack.
your
posts have really been supportive and encouraged me not to give it all up. Thank you. I shall be sad to drive away form here, my home for 22 or more years, I brought my sons up here , this is where we were when their father died. And it is a lovely area and I am moving to one that is not so err elite. That is not a big issue but it is not what I am used to. But I shall be mortgage free. That is a big thing. And my son and I will be happy there I am sure.
Thank you. I keep looking for your encouraging comments
tess
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Dear Tess,
I've been thinking of you over the weekend. Did things go to plan, in that you moved on Friday and final cleanup on Saturday?
Hoping thats the case, because by now you can start to relax a bit. As you said last week, there is no urgency to unpack. No deadlines. You can take your time and settle in as you choose to.
I guess once thats done, it will be a case of actively looking for some part time work. I dont recall what line of work you're in, so I have no idea how difficult that will be for you. Wishing you every success.
Yes I understand how you might feel leaving what has been your home for 22 years. We do form attachments to places. But soon you will feel similar in your new home, with new and happy memories forming there too.
Give yourself time to settle, time to relax and time to recover from the undeniable stresses of moving house.
Sending love and hugs.
Amanda 💜 🌺
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Hello Tess,
I just want to call in and wish you all the very best for your new life in your new home 🏡.
A huge congratulations sweetheart,,🎉🎊🎈🎀🎉 you done it...I am very proud of your achievements...
Now just sit back, relax and enjoy your new surroundings, new neighbours and possibly new friends..
I really hope you and your son can both enjoy yourselves by making your new house a wonderful warm home..
Kind thoughts and caring comfy hugs 🤗
Grandy..
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Thank you so much Grandy,
yes I am in. It has been awful, so stressful and I can’t sleep. In th end it was a nightmare. The moving and all. And there is still some stuff to get from the outside of the other place. I just want to cry all the time I am so tired. I hate this house and am not adjusting yet to the change at all. Your messages mean a lot. There is quite a bit of cleaning to do here and I have too much furniture etc. I feel overwhelmed. And sad. My anxiety is through the roof.
the support I get here means a lot especially when I know what you are going through too
tess
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Hello Tess,
Awe sweetheart I'm so sorry, I hope I didn't upset you with my post..l have to go out now for a few hours, I'll come back and talk if that's okay..again I'm 😥..
Love n hugs 🤗
Grandy..
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Oh no you didn’t upset me at all. It was lovely. It is just me.
Tess
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Hi Tess, (and good morning Grandy too)
I didnt get your post to me on my thread until after I'd written here last night. So thanks for the brief update on my thread as to how you got along with the move. And your post here this morning has provided more details.
I'm so sorry its all been so stressful for you. And also that you do not yet feel happy in your new home. I'm sure you will, its just going to take some time for everything to settle. One step at a time, as everyone say.
As for the excess furniture, thats not a problem. Wait until you get more settled and see what 'fits' in the new home, then ring up a second hand furniture place and they will come out and take what you no longer need. They dont usually offer very much, but its worry free and everything goes as a package to them. Make sure they take the lot, and not just what they want. Alternatively have a garage sale for anything you dont want any more. That probably requires more of an effort, and you're likely to be left with a lot of stuff, but is worth considering.
When you say there is still items to collect from the other house, is that mainly garden type things, and maybe favourite pot plants etc? I hope you can manage to get that under control soon, so its one less thing to worry about. Do you have the ability to collect it all yourself, or do you need to organise a trailer or the removalist?
Overwhelmed, sad and anxious. Oh dear, how well I know those feelings! All I can suggest is that you rest when you can and try to get as much sleep as you need. Even if thats during the day, if thats the only time you're able. Dont forget to breathe Tess. For something so simple and essential, its damned hard to do sometimes.
Dont worry, you will come through all this. Your decision to move was a good one, based on sound reasoning, and will pay dividends soon.
Thinking of you. And thanks for your post to me on my thread yesterday, it was so kind of you to think of me during your own distress.
Amanda xx
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Dear amanda
thank you for your encouraging words. They mean a lot. Things are really tough here. My son and I are fighting, I think it is just all the stress but it is so hard to move everything and we still have most of the container to unpack. I feel so unsettled and alone. So alone
tess
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Dear Tess,
This is my first post here, but I have followed your story so far. You have a lovely support team in here
Moving house and moving to a different area is absolutely through-the-roof stressful. Give yourself plenty of time and space and patience and gentleness to adjust to these enormous changes.
I can really relate to having too much stuff, and it is incredibly overwhelming and stressful. When I packed up my house a couple of years ago it was a nightmare, and I had to donate more than half of my furniture etc because I was moving to a tiny home ... and now my garage is still piled high with crap that causes me daily angst .... I can understand how you are feeling, and you are not alone.
I thought I would post to you, I read your post about not being able to wait until the end for it to be ok. I just wanted to hold out a hand of friendship Tess, and remind you that you are not alone, and that you can get through all of this, just one moment at a time. We can only deal with this moment that we are in, so do whatever it is right now, that will get you through thus moment.
Hold yourself gently and have compassion for yourself. You have survived incredible ordeals, and will survive again
🌻birdy