relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

And you're awesome 4 saying I'm awesome. Yay, a day off. I've been having many days off. Projects r late to come in to work ( early Aug)...so just wen I though I'd be working more I'm not. All good in the hood though.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Morning ,

Works hard at times hey ..hopefully the rest of the year will be busy for you and you will be wishing for a day off ...

🙂 ..... Not much to report my end ...just doing stuff you know ...nothing exciting ...

taking it easy this weekend ...Have a nice weekend MM x

[monkey_magic]

Hullooo,

How are you? Had a shift at work today. I did really well on my shift. Was just watching an interview with a woman who travelled for 13 months in Australia on her horses and with her dog. What a champion. She bathed in waterholes and slept under the stars and met a man she fell in love with...in the meantime I sit in front of a computer... Riveting stuff not...jobs I'm looking at r in offices- so not me though, I'll figure it out. I'd rather be travelling on a horse....of course.

Hope you had a good day & peaceful restful sleep & make that money honey...

Peace out man of the sea, house and land.... Hope you're having some fun too.

[awrinkle_in_time]

You make me Smile 🙂 🙂 ...... Love it , thanks

What a lovely story ...and she fell in love .... my eyes welled up , then i went out and changed the oil in the car ... hhhrrr ....

Glad you had a good shift at work ... lovely ...

ive been busy with being on call ...im a little out of whack with my sleep ...just woke and made a cup of tea and had a hot shower ...got sleepy music on ... have a training thing on in the morning ...early start ....will wear sunnies ...ha ha ... im going to join a gym class that works out down the beach in the mornings ....might faaaalllll in lllluuuuvvvveee ....might meet a lllaaaddyyy .... anyway ...might not either .... 🙂 ... i finish Thursday morning (Call)....might do my first class Sat Morning .....wish me luck .. it might be fun ...wonder if i can find a pizza shop open after the class ....being silly ...ill have a shake ....being silly again ...

better get to sleep ....Have a great day ...My Friend ...all the compliments at ya again you have to many to write ..

of course just one horse .. 🙂 Night ...

[monkey_magic]

" A horse is a horse of course, of course and no one can talk to a horse of course, go right to the source and ask the horse."

Hey, sounds great with the Sat morn exercise class gooood luuuccckk!!! You will fall in love when u least expect it. I never find it when I'm looking.

Wish me luck too. I'm going to a birthday cash draw tonight. They call names out every hr for birthdays in July and u either win $500 or $1000. I had a dream my name was called.

Pizzas can be healthy & shakes.

I was invited to a lady's church night. No thanks. & the Jehovah's have been coming around. I rem being brainwashed when I was younger but I see through it all now. Going to live life on my terms not their God's terms. I would rather not be around those pushy God people that know they are going to heaven because they are "saved" and all the rest of us are going to hell....and we have to be like them to have "salvation". Made that mistake before...

Another sunny day.

I'm at these crossroads in my life. Really want to move to Tasmania but I don't know if I want to be so far away from my family. Been putting a lot of thought into it. I know I don't want to stay where I am for the rest of my life.

Don't know how u do shift work...tiring.

Be good

X

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Happy Birthday xx

And the best of Luck for the draw hope you win the 1000 bucks ...fingers crossed ...and toes ....

yes pushy church people ...not for me either ...i know what you mean ...

At the cross roads ... which way shall it be ... Try not to put to much pressure on yourself ...your doing so well ..

like you said things happen when you least expect it ... jobs , opportunities , relationships ....

when im on call i wait at home and the phone can ring and i have to go and fix stuff ..can be random ....busy not busy ... last night tonight ..

Have a nice night ...hope you win ... 🙂

[monkey_magic]

I really liked your msg it made me smile. I didn't win the cash draw but I was winning the pokies, but didn't take it out and won a smaller amount. Still a win though.

I met a stranger that I felt like I knew, hung out and even kissed. We liked each other. But the longer he spoke the worse it got lol. Gave me a bag of oranges for dropping him home. I have his number but second guessing him. Might hang out with him again. And I wasn't at all looking just interested in winning the money back on the pokies.

Plenty of fish in the sea...

I Iove how u wrote no pressure u r doing so well, loved that.

So, I found a little bit of love last night, didn't jump into bed with him though which he was way too keen on. Just met the guy.He wanted everything straight away...the oranges r nice lol straight from the tree...and ma first smooch in quite a few months. BTW I'm laughing at him right now, not with him...

Going to b having two bday celebrations with FAM for my bday. That's what's making my decision to relocate hard, I'll be away from all that and nothing can really compare to that. But I will eventually relocate 😞 and 🙂 ....

I hope u enjoy ur exercise session and get to smooch someone lol.

You are doing really well too.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya ,

Birthdays with the Fam ....nice ... do you believe in the star signs ....i like to look ....the matches ... interesting reading ....So you had a night on the pokies with the orange boy 🙂 .... Im just jealous 🙂 ....

Im off call tonight ....cooking chicken Kiev and one or 2 beers ... Have had her on my mind today ...so random it kills hey ....just like she is thinking the same ... anyway , just telling my thoughts ...im so grateful your hear for me to write too .... Im doing well over all ....and your kind words are appreciated ... your lovely ...

Have a nice night my friend ... Ill go fishing ... you should too ...

[monkey_magic]

Hey,

Nothing to be jealous of lol...been thinking and don't think I want to see the orange boy again, might look for the pineapple boy though- will probably be sweeter.

Fishing- for love or for fish? Sounds great to me. When I lived in qld I used to fish as I was close to the water but right now I'm happy to just buy the fish in a box.

It's good that u r doing things to distract those thoughts...I still think of past loves but moving forward too...

Starsigns- sometimes I've read about my star sign and it has been accurate. I used to have a book on star signs and always used to read mine, not so much these days though but if I come across it I will.

You said you're doing well over all- perfect.

Last night drank a white moscato, white wine & red wine. Woman next to me had a beer..you're having a beer, I'll have a water thanks. Hope you're having a lovely night x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya ..Full moon crazy time ...i feel okay ...You ? 🙂

Had a busy day all went okay ....glad its the weekend ...Went on a big walk this morning was nice, will sleep well tonight ...Not much to report ...all is pretty good ...Good luck with your money making ...hope you have a big win 🙂

The past loves are pains in the ...

Have a nice night MM ...X