relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

i cant email her ...I'm in a computer relationship ...

exercise is attractive ....a healthy look ...not to over the top .. ive always had a 29/30 waist fat tummies on men are not good ...

i have noticed ...do you think others are following ...reading ....or are we alone .... monkey ...

no sure about the exploding heart ....what do you think ....

of course you could ...

i think about writing to you during my day ...i think about what we talk about and it makes me smile ...feel good about myself ...i haven't told anyone in my life that im on this site ...and i talk with you ...i have wanted to but i haven't....

[monkey_magic]

Ur still making me lol..

I think ppl r reading and following. Should we send out an open invite for others to write in and give their opinions? Maybe send us some of that tasteless cyber food haha...cyber chocolate lol.

You r welcome to write to us esp if u can make us laugh. Only if it's OK with a wrinkle in time bcas he started the thread but I know how much he likes to laugh.

It's heartening to read/ take in that u r smiling & feeling good about yourself, that's really good...sometimes I read posts and words of life come out of the screen, some threads r funny,most pretty serious though and it feels good to make a difference to someone else. You're like that. You want good for ppl- it's what I pick up from your words.

If u tell ppl from the outside they might jump on and read. There are stats that tens of thousands of ppl read each month...

[Ronniefm]

Hey I have an idea. How about breaking the cycle of your thought patterns. Block negative and unhelpful thoughts. Remember that we are what we think. Let your love go her way and be thankful that you had time together. Work hard helping others, and let her see you are a good man. Bye

[awrinkle_in_time]

I sort of like us just writing ... 🙂 .. being selfish ...

if people want to join in thats okay with me ...

we could sneak off and start another thread ..can we run away together Monkey ...

are you still in a funny mood .... hows the wig still goin off ...

have i used the L word ...? Could we get a pizza and have a beer and go see a movie ...

I have said some strange stuff hey ...

bacon is a great idea .. and grilled tomato ...and a nice coffee ... some cracked pepper ...

xxx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Night

xxx

[monkey_magic]

Morning,

Look, some1 jumped on board. Ronniefm has added some quality advice...thanks Ronniefm.

Do u feel the need to run from your life A.W.I.T? I shortened your name.

We watched carpool karaoke together...next time we could have a pizza and beer?

Yep wigs still running around the room, then stops to do the wig dance. It's loving life. Slept on the couch last night so I could watch it. Its going to be hard to make it sit still on my head again. A FAM member said how good I was looking,how nice my hair was I said yeah it's a wig lol...it def makes a difference to my overall look.

So u have a small waist- keep up that athletic bod- looks awesome.

Talking about eggs- I eat a lot of them; boiled, fried, or scrambled...I don't know how to poach them...tried but it ends up a mess.

Is the energy running through ya- or still flat?

Going to makes us a coffee. I usually have 2 of them. U must b glad the seize is over..everyone is the neighbourhood is free again. Hope u enjoy your day. Let us know what u get up to- only if u want....

I'd rather be at your neck of the goods/ woods. After talking about/ visualizing it I want to go back but yeah scary things happened to me in Queensland when I used to walk alone. It was when the sun was going down/ down.....The loons would come out.

Enjoy the amazingness...wish I was there.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Yes good of Ronnie to jump in ...i appreciate his comments but if it was that easy we wouldn't need Beyond Blue ...He is right we are what we think ...

Yes feeling better today ....had a real flat tyre yesterday ...got out this morning and had a big walk ....the police are all gone and we are all back to normal ...Crazy is in jail all is good ...

Okay would love to share the pizza and beer one time ... shall we do home made ones ? ...If you want ? ...

the poached eggs are easy would love to help you with them ...healthy too ...if you would want ... 🙂

Thats lovely you made us a coffee ... the little things ...(.i wont start ill get emotional ) ....ill just say thank-you ...x

So my day started with a walk as i told you before ..along the beach path ..i saw my friend (5 Ladies Now ) at the chin up bar ...he was doing his exercises ...(showing off) ...had a chat with him then got home and went up to get some food from Woolies , i get organised for the week most Sundays ...Then my mum rang and i chatted with her ...i told her all about us writing on this thread ....i told her how much i enjoy writing to you ...Not sure what i might do for the rest of the day ....will make some lunch soon ... Its my sisters birthday today so i sent her a funny text ...family jokes ...we have a good laugh when we get together ....i should plan a trip to see them they live in Melbourne ....

I glad your escaped anything real bad while you walked around at night in Qld .....Monkey i cant even imagine ....lets not even think about it ....

Yes the Amazingness is in full flight today ....would be good if you were hear ...

We could chat and laugh all day ....be sure to bring the wig ...

That was nice of your family member to give you that compliment ...I bet you alway look nice ...

I have to be careful giving complements ....dont want to go over the top and i can tend to do that ...showing control ...Monkey ... Maybe the wig is feeling house bound and it needs an outing ... is it drinking to much coffee ... being silly again ....

Whats your day looking like ?? is the sun out ? ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

I got some salt and vinegar chips at Wollies ....have eaten half the packet ....i love em ....

another thing i did this morning was cut up my red papaya ....i put it in the fridge ....cut 2 up ...its a good snack my body loves it ...Keeps me sharp ...i need that ha ha ...cooking up buttered chicken ....i got a hot one .... that will be tea tonight ... im also sipping on the sparkling celebrity water .... caps on ...sunnies aunt cause im inside ...

[monkey_magic]

Yeah the sun was out- was perfect weather. I drove and ended up at a huge lake in a reserve. Walked through the mangroves - there was a bridge. Me and this guy locked eyes as he stepped out of the car- didnt talk to him though- i really think i should continue with my single stage of my life, i would have chatted to him otherwise- just not ready for a boyfriend. Thats how easily it happens A.W.I.T.He was there at the right time. All these yaughts were for sale. Was imagining another life. Where I could buy a yaught and take friends/ family on the water....then I went to a club. Drank 2 apple cidars ( bcas they didn't have pear) and had these huge veg spring roles. I'm sitting in my car writing giving myself more time- really don't want to get done for being a bit over- if I am...

I've lost my license twice in my life- accumulation of points- mostly speeding, so know what it's like to b on public transport for 6 months. No thanks I wanna drive too. There were some lovely & nice ppl in the club. Was overhearing their banter/ convos. The majority of ppl r pretty good I think, but sometimes ur just surrounded with the unsavoury ones.

So u told your mum, opened up to her. Feels good to share hey.

Compliment away haha- I love em. I'll give u one; I think u r caring...I'm the same love making ppl feel good. Love instilling belief in ppl too...

I don't really have a camera in your home. I sense things about ppl though.

...still sitting in my car- bit of a hike home.

I should tell u my bribie island story. I walked really far through the night at the main beach there. There were billions of stars and firefly's. U rub on the sand and these firefly's appeared. It was unreal. Because of the blackness and billions of stars it felt like I was in space...my first ever experience like it.

So u ran some errands today. Your mate should watch out for STDs lol, a lot of ppl r careless when it comes to that. Lol...u should always find out if they've been tested...

...still in the car

Happy birthday to your sister and I agree you should fly to melb when u can. Maybe have another suvlaki. They make chocolate coated chickens down there too- saw them in a shop, & yeah love lamb suvlaki- haven't burnt my chin on one I don't think. I burn my tongue sometimes.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Are you still in the car ?

Take care driving home ...

Glad you had a nice day ...and found a club ...your funny ... did you get me a drink ? ...

i loved the way you made that coffee ...what did you do with it ...it was amazing ...

did you get a walk along the beach ...to cold ?? ....

Chocolate coated chickens ....is that something KFC is doing ...

I think you should continue your single life ...( Im jealous ) ha ha ...

the fire flies ...i have seen them in America ...i know what you mean the first time its crazy ...

Safe travels home and sleep in your bed tonight ..not on the couch ...just the caring coming out in me ...

do you like peeling an apple and cutting into bit size pieces ...i do that on road trips ...

Later single girl ...