relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , yes some posts have been held up ...

I love how you tell me detailed stuff ...I like you Monkey ..

Both those islands are beautiful ...you saw some stuff ...and the guys sounded interesting ... ha ha

thats right ,the company is everything ... if a guy is drinking heaps on a date get out ... just my bit added in ha ha

Glad you enjoyed the family get together ...Family is great hey ...all mine are interstate ...we all should get together more often ... some men do work to hard ...I'm a bit like that ...we feel the responsibility to provide ...

in my last post i said i felt a little flat today ... i feel better now ...and you know i cant even write about it ...

You know im so glad your hear to talk with ...anyway ...

Not sure what will happen , i have faith in the Qld police the boys will have it in hand ... it will end peacefully ...the guy looks like a bad dude ...

I have been relaxing today ...went for a massage this morning on the shoulder ...boy he found the tight muscles ...feels a bit better thats what might be making me feel flat ... i felt connected to her this morning ...crazy ...

No have not had a date .. lying low ....was seeing this one lady ...but didn't feel it ...haven't seen her for a while now ...

I feel like some fish and chips ..did the duck look no good ? ...

I just love our chats ...Thank you ...

Do you know many jokes ....i seem to forget them ... you have to say them with the emotion hey ...

I ate the rest of the ice cream today ...salted cameral with nuts ...forget what type of nuts ...

I miss being in love monkey ... i think thats what is on my mind ...

can i borrow your hand for the weekend ??

[monkey_magic]

Just thinking-

Have no fear of not finding love/ being in love. Be love and feel content on your own then search for love. U could find it or it could find you. Get to know women, it could turn into love. You have to let go of her from the past completely. Is being in love with yourself enough?

When you are used to being in love it's excruciating to live without it. When u haven't had it u don't know what u r missing and live without it. Some ppl will never experience being in love in their whole lifetime. You and me have fallen deeply in love with another so are lucky to have " felt" so much. But remember you are a loving man and can share that around. You can give acts of love to others. It shifts a gear inside...u feel better. And u will attract it back if your aura is love. U attract the energy u put out...and receive it back.

I think if u desire to be in love again u will be. U strike me as a go getter...just have nothing holding u back and I don't see why it can't happen again.

U have to build with a person if u want a lasting relationship... Then the love can ignite. Got to love when those sparks fly and u feel those butterflies.

So, that's what has come out of me when u said u missed being in love. Just some stuff to maybe think about, use or discard.

U felt flat; u prob need affection. Long hugs n stuff. All night long.

Shout out to all the lovers out there- anyone want to fall in love with this man??? He,he...I just put it out there for you. Loads of people across Australia read these posts. U could put an add in the paper man looking for love...and date whoever bites... Dating sites would be better cas they have a profile and u can scan... But say looking for love- that could help, bcas others looking for love will contact u..

Love is in the air. 🙂

You wear your heart on your sleeve hey a wrinkle in time?

I'll send my hand in the post and u can take it with u always....

You've got me feeling the luuurve....

What the guy did from the news is bad. The guy chasing me through the park was badder ( in looks) wish he was caught bcas he could and prob would hurt someone, or has already. Maybe he's locked up.

So, are you still hiding under the bed?

Like writing to ya too..

Be good when u can see your family again.

[awrinkle_in_time]

if i shout it out to loud the police will come over there are about 2 million cops around the corner ..ha ha

just got out from under the bed ... was hungry and need to go to the toilet ...

wear my heart on my sleeve is that a bad thing ?

that guy is locked up for sure ...

What are you having for dinner ..

[awrinkle_in_time]

ive made some veggie soup and rice with curry powder mixed through it ...

[monkey_magic]

Wowee sounds like Australia's whole police force are in your area.

Same food as the other day...pasta, pork, veg with pesto and cheese.

Ur a funny guy and sound like a good cook.

Wearing your heart on your sleeve isn't a bad thing.

Tha fella in ur area is on this way to the watch house...the 2million police should clear now so shout away! Saw the news...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Yep shouting out the window now ....and the bloke next door is telling me to shut up ... ha ha

Is the pork from all the meat trays in the freezer ? the ones you won ...

yes just saw it as well... on the way to the watch house ...bad boy ...

hey, cant wait to get your hand in the mail ...would you send it in a box or a bag ...just so i know what to look out for ... are you liking the dots as well noticed a few in your posts ...

dots are so good .. love the dots ....

yes have done lots of cooking ....adding the curry powder to the rice and microwaving does take a certain skill set ... and opening the tin of soup and heating is stuff you only see on master chef ..

Your dinner sound interesting ...

Derrin Brown (Faith or Fiction ) and Derrin Brown (Push) ....watched these shows today ... they were pretty good ..

you might like them ....you might not .... 🙂 🙂 ....

yes the love .... the love ....that place of comfort ... that place where everything is perfect ... being so content ...being at peace .... everything just works ... the happiness oooohhhhhh the happiness .... she exploded in my heart ....

which hand are you going to send left or right ..

[monkey_magic]

I laughed all the way through that :-)...I thought u made the soup yourself lol..and some ppl will say they can't cook rice, but u there Mr talented even think to add some taste to it- go on masterchef for sure and then I'll see your face haha...

I have some bad news. My mum said I'm too giving, she thinks removing my hand - left one will cause all sorts of problems. She thinks I should keep it on....hey...my wig just ran across the room...

The dots are great... I may or may not have copied u...is that another one from your set of skills? 🙂 the dot man, catch him if u can...

U had hazelnuts in your i scream.

Just didn't feel like the duck...still haven't seen anyone walking one like you have 😞

I gave my grandmother the tray of pork from the meatray raffle since it was her birthday...I rem u said to give it to the cop, could u imagine, giving a cop pork?

Derrin Brown, will have to look him up.

Joke; why did the girl fall off the swing? Why?Because she didn't have any hands...

Lucky I still have mine...

[awrinkle_in_time]

You made me laugh as well ....i had a good laugh thanks...

I recon keep both hands they do come in handy ...and ill just picture in my mind your hand in mine when i feel the panic attack coming ...ha ha ....your right i did have hazelnuts ...is there a camera in my apartment ... how did you know ...

the joke was clever ... and funny ... your a smart lady ...its a very atractive feature ....

whats the wig up to ...running around the room ... is it on the cat ...

i do make good poached eggs ...i recon if i could think something to jazz it up a bit i could take out first prize ...

i thought of toast but thats been done before .... write your thoughts down on a bit of paper and place in the suggestions box ...

Grandma would have loved the tray of pork ( winnings from the raffle ) ...i am laughing so much ...

Did you gift wrap it ...your so funny ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

carl barron @ just for laughs

[monkey_magic]

Hey,

Your post from a while back ( sending email to ex) just came through...had to go back a bit to read it...sounds like you're looking for closure/ answers. I think you should do it.

No cats here wig's just loving its new little legs...running around my lounge room... ( I am so silly)...

Eggs go well with bacon. My suggestion is bacon haha.

Exercise also makes u attractive; doesn't work for everyone though.

A wrinkle in time is attracted to monkey magic. We could start a beyond blue romance. Can I make your heart explode? You've already said the L- word...I am kissing the screen.

I'm in such a funny mood...

We've had this computer relationship for nearly 10 months now. So what u going to get me for our 1 yr anniversary a wrinkle in time?

Just the two of us.....

Have u noticed no one else writes in any more? Ha,ha..what did we do?