relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

How to get over someone you deeply love~

•rem there's no time limit

•let yourself feel your emotions

•rem to love yourself

• write down how u feel

• turn your energy into something positive

• don't hold on to anger and blame

• don't torture yourself

• rem there isn't just one person out there for you

• you will see the light at the end of the tunnel.

you know and do most of this already but wanted to jot it down as a reminder...healing vibes coming your way just for you.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Beautiful Lady

I like the time limit bit ..i am starting to get a complex its taking so long so thank you i will read and re-read .. Yes i know i read a bit of the Christmas Chill Out Lounge stuff ...didnt really understand what it meant ..its all good .. Hope i haven't offended anyone i don't think i have ...

Have had a shit couple of days all the feeling back again ..i have let myself get a little to tired have been busy at work and not saying no enough ...i wrote a heap of stuff down last night ..I was angry at her and wrote no very nice things ...just on a note pad no one will see it .. it felt good to admit how i really feel without the fear of her ...and that fear is in me ...but little seeds were planted and i made them grow ... i regret falling for that one but i did all the right buttons ...why do that to someone you love ...cant work that one out..Anyway i have been crying while driving and just feeling a great loss ... will have a healthy dinner and try to get a good sleep tonight .. The other lady i was seeing has drifted away a little ...i have lost interest can't pretend anymore ..i lost the feelings for the EX while i was with the other lady but it was only a distraction..i think one day while we were out i said the EXs name all in the wrong context ...i felt terrible ..anyway I'm not ready ...i might just stay single and not have all the hassle ..a lot less pain ... so it rolls around doesn't it ...i have to watch out for it ...but I'm letting the emotion out ...its been so strong the last 48hrs its like she is feeling it as well ...Crazy thinking i know ..would'nt it be nice to just un load baggage together and move forward love and look after each other ..i really thought we could do that..the love was there the friendship was there....i cry so hard i feel like my face is turning into a prune...

I might buy myself some real nice socks tomorrow ..

Just got a phone call and my thoughts were distracted ... there is something in that .. Hope your good Monkey

Thank You x

[Guest_1584]

Hi simon n monkey.

I must admit last time l dropped in l wondered how you were coping seeing someone else i your state.mate. Sorry it went that way but yeah , would've thought way too soon.

Mines in waves too and right now it's terrible, l cracked and tried to call her today, no answer. It might be just as well , not sure.

[monkey_magic]

.......spreading a little monkey magic to mend your broken hearts......I just hope all the crying turns to strength and the waves one day settle......Love.....Love....love..be strong boys

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Mate , yes the ups and downs are killers ..I know what your going through ...making contact can be painful, be careful of that one ..

I hope your feeling better soon ...Be extra good to yourself tomorrow 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Monkey , Had a good day today ...feel a lot better ..Went to the gym and worked hard .. am up with things at work ..and all seems ok ..

Just wanted to tell someone :]

Hope your well .. the weather today was so nice ...beautiful blue sky ..i got out for a morning walk .. filled the lungs ...got the heart rate up a little ..

[monkey_magic]

Great effort!!!

All sounding positive.

Love from itchy n scratchy

Yep,they are still biting...

[Guest_1584]

Thanks monkey , working on it eh , the good old 1 forward 2 back yaknow.

How you doin. I was reading about your trip , bloody nice going , good for you.

Thanks simon you too mate and hell yeah , you ain't wrong. l must admit that call wiped me out for a few days , dumb move , just the thought and action was bad enough although it was more a did she block me , is this what we've come too, yaknow, she may not have though she might've just been flying.

But at any rate though , don't think l'll be trying that again.

Take care you two.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Thats funny still itching and scratching ...Can you go to Bunnings and get a nest removal kit for inside roofs ..

just kidding I'm sure they would be out of them this time of year :] :] :]

crazy time of year ..very busy at work ..not really enjoying that ..going to some friend for dinner tonight so that will be nice ... Hope the day was kind to you and you got to smile at something .. hope you can get onto stopping itching soon ...

I've started scratching now and I'm not even itchy ..did you see the jokes in the Christmas Chill Out Lounge ...brace yourself ...very funny ..and I'm not being sarcastic one bit ...xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Mate , hope you had a good day ..don't think of her blocking you or even making contact ...if you can, easier said than done i know .. stay strong mate .. plan something good for yourself for the weekend ...Keep me posted .. I'm interested :]