relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

Great story!!

Would u say why u were arrested?... Again u don't have to say...you've got me curious...I on the other hand would love certain ppl arrested. I would honesty feel better if they were...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , just cleaned the shower ...its spotless ...ha ha

how was your thinking day ....if you want to tell me ...

your not under the bed ?

[monkey_magic]

I'm not under the bed...thinking day went well...maybe I should go hide under the bed...ha,ha...

[monkey_magic]

Night, a wrinkle in time xox

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , hope your day went well , I might start a new thread ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Ive had a stressed out day , didn't sleep real well last night ...

came home from work early , feel all disconnected ...

feel like ive lost everything ... i said to myself today , just get to the car and get home ... i hate feeling like this ...

hope your day was okay ....its like i miss something ....

[monkey_magic]

Shine bright like a diamond Simon...was inspired by carpool karaoke with Sia to say that...I think the Sia one is my favourite.

Yeah if u want to start a new thread...or 4....

[awrinkle_in_time]

I will take a look , glad you enjoyed it ....

i want to say so much ...im overwhelmed ..

[monkey_magic]

Yeah check it out. That's what this space is for Simon...feel free to talk, I'll be listening...

[monkey_magic]

Simon when I think of your life you have everything. You have the security of somewhere to live, a secure job, children, a gym membership, the beach, mates, money etc...in my opinion you have it all. You said u missed being in love so that could be the " something" missing...you have a sense of humour, u can belly laugh...

I can relate to feeling disconnected though....

I'm sure it will sort itself out...

Feelings are temporary... They can & do change...

Did u find the Sia carpool funny?

There are other ppl here at BB that have written they too feel disconnected. I'd write to more ppl Simon & that way u have more support. Starting another thread might mean more ppl will jump on board too. Have u ever called lifeline 131114 or the BB line- they can help, so u have options. I've called both before. I actually use lifeline a lot. You can also use an online chat option.

You'll get through this. You have been so supporting and lovely and funny to me...

Much love