relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

I found a movie ...Anchorman 2

xxx

[monkey_magic]

Hi,

I'm at a friend watching TV , chatting and having a beer. I'm liking beer tonight. Enjoy your movie 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi ,

Glad your enjoying a beer ....The movie is so funny i has just about fallen off the couch ..laughing that is

Have a nice night with your friend ....

I thinking of making poached eggs tomorrow ...coffee grilled tomato and....... bacon ....

xxx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Im doing colouring in ....i have a real detailed colouring in book ...its very relaxing ...

sharing my relaxedness with you

xxx

[monkey_magic]

U send me the best vibes surfer boy:-)

Having another beer...driving so just having two...ahh...I feel relaxed...thankyou 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Good Vibes all round ...Thank-you xxx

Listening to Gaga Gaga ...

Glad your relaxed , Lovely lady ...So much good is on its way to you ...smiling ....

xxx

[monkey_magic]

Ta, 4 the lovely coffee/ capachino this morning,

Yes, you can add more to the book title...can I ask what u did when u had no money travelling in America?

I'm out from under the bed, going to study, do an assignment.

It's excellent that you laughed out loud at the movie... Me and my friend were watching comedians last night that weren't funny + 2 beers.

I'm going to get a walk in today.

Tried again with powerball + sat lotto- no luck, so can't have my very funny wig room yet, where the wigs dance...

Thanks for the celebrity water and icecream the other day...

You've done & do a lot in your life. You get things done. How's the shoulder going? Hope the overwhelmed has now passed for you...

I hope good things come your way too 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi ...

Thanks for the words i just love reading what you write ...Just love it ....

Glad you enjoyed your cap ...i put a little extra chocolate on the top ....hope it wasn't to much ...smiling

The movie last night was so funny haven't laughter like that for a long time a real belly laugh ....it was silly humour ...but i like that ....i listened to music and just chilled ...was nice ...i like being by myself at times ...

im into making the pizza at the moment ....ha ha ...they are so yum ...

You enjoyed a beer last night even though the comedians weren't funny ...I got out for a walk this morning as well ...i think living in a warmer climate helps to motivate you to do things ....i have family in the cooler climate and is cold and wet 9 months of the year ...its a bit easier in the sun 🙂 ....Everyone is different hey ...

You do heaps as well ...you went on your hike last week ...split your pants and cracked your phone 🙂 🙂 ...Luv U

No good with the lotto again ...is it rigged you recon ....ha ha ....Im putting it out there my friend Monkey has important good to do and its her turn to win ...First prize ...The wig room has to happen ...smiling ...

So glad you out from under the bed ...Thank God Your Okay ...You sound happy ... A big smile ....

slow and steady wins the race ....(caring coming out in me )

No Money in America ....we got jobs and worked in one place for 3 months making pellets ....fork lift pellets ....we got paid well and was able to travel with that money ...we owned a kombi van and we slept in that every night ...i was in my 20s and could rough it easy ...we got odd jobs when we needed money .... We worked real hard and the Americans didnt want us to leave ....i always enjoy visiting America ...

Shoulder is getting there need to do my exercises not motivated ..i will do some today ....try too ...need to get it strong ..the muscles are so tight ....a massage helps ....

Have a Lovely rest of the day ...

Still overwhelmed 🙂 ...

[monkey_magic]

Hi again Simon,

Just wanted to add u don't have to ans anything u don't want to...

I've been thinking a lot today...didn't get anything done. Just thinking...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello , its okay i love answering you ...

Are you good ? I hope so ..