relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hello , Good morning ...So 200 rows ...thats a lot of numbers ...from my heart Monkey i hope you win 1st division ...cant wait to buy your books ...Yep the New York Yankees ...my cap is dark blue ...i will have to keep an eye out for the black one ... that would look cool ...can picture the wig ...pony and the cap ... you would turn some heads i recon ... ( they are only human ) ha ha ... Hope your day at work went well .. Im busy at the moment at work ... juggling things around ...it keeps me on my toes .. i did some house work last night ...the house is nice and clean ...laundry up to date ... i go on call tonight for a week so i like to be up with it ...just in case i get busy ....Yes saw a little of the snow season stuff on the tv the other day ... they will be happy ... lots of snow ... looked good ... Gums feel amazing the stuff is real good ... the bandages will be coming off probably next week ...and the bleeding has stopped ..are you smiling ...just kidding ...gums are good ... Not much to report ...having coffee and going to get heaps of clothes on again today ..its cool again ...going to hit the gym some time today more rowing ... love it ...You have a great day my friend ... i thinking lotto win for you ... Just love writing to you ...thanks xxoo

[monkey_magic]

Well sir, I now have 250 rows in the lotto, only one day to go. Chances of that big win r so minimal but I can dream. I was dreaming on the way home from work yday.

Sick germs r all over the house ( sick mum) really hope I don't...

Such a gorgeous day outside today.

Great that u r still at the gym:-)

Don't think I want to try that mouth wash of yours lol. Enjoy your day xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya ...

There is a coffee shop in Buderim thats called The Coffee Monkey ...i was in there the other day and they have this big book with a pic of a monkey on it ... and monkey stuff around the shop ... i gave a smile while i ordered my coffee ...it was nice ...thought of our little chats ...and they have very nice coffee ...So 250 rows ...thats a lot of numbers ...you should win something ... i have all body parts crossed for you ... best of luck ... its nice to dream ...your right ...go for the dreams ...make stuff happen ...slowly slowly ... Your mum is sick ...thats no good, lots of stuff going around ....has she got the flu ..?? or a cold ?? ... i had a cold the other week it took a bit to shake but good now ...have been lovin the sleep lately ... lot of covers on the bed ... its been a bit warmer this week .. the days are perfect ...just the mornings and evenings ...are chilly ... yes the gym is going good ...have been rowing ..was out on call late last night so wont go today need sleep ...rest ... will go over the weekend if all goes well ... the mouth was is going okay ...it has taken a little getting used to ...gums are good ...it has no Alcohol ...its skin dry out time of the year ... Did you have a nice day Monkey ... i hope you did and all went well ... My day went okay was in the field working on the tools it was good got lots done ... had an apprentice helping which was good to have some company ... will have early tea tonight ...and get a good sleep ... might see whats on Netflix ... might try and find a series ...i like them ... can you recommend any ?? ... Have a nice night ...can you make your mum some lemon and honey in hot water ... Ive been wearing my NY cap around the house ...love it and it keeps my head warm ... Later Mate xx

[monkey_magic]

Mum just has a cold. Got my lotto results. Had some small wins- but lost money. 4 wins is OK, but not enough to cover what I payed. Oh well.

The coffee monkey- sounds like a cute cafe- glad the coffees good.

I don't have Netflix so wouldn't know sorry.

Work sounds like it's going well 4 u.

My day was pretty good thanks 4 asking. Have some time off work so will be doing what I feel like 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , thats no good about the lotto .. sorry to hear ... its crazy hey ...the person who won could have put like 1 game on ...you were hopeful as well ...sending a couple of cuddles... I woke in the night my arm was asleep ...i couldn't move it ...its okay now ...so got up and got a drink ...soda water .. must have slept on it ... i got some food shopping done today ...I made pizza for tea , was so yummy ... got to sleep now ...a few more cuddles are on the way ... xooo

[monkey_magic]

That's really nice of you to offer the cuddles.

I know what u mean about the dead arm, happens to me quite a lot...I seem to sleep on it especially when I'm sleeping on the couch.

Pizza is always good :-)Atm im eating pasta with vegies & cheese & having a coffee. There were 10 ppl that won div1 so they all had to share the prize money.

I spend a lot of time on other ppls instagrams esp celebrity's always checking out what they are up to lol. So you still drink your celebrity water I see.

I don't have Netflix but I do YouTube a lot.

My insides r hurting. U guys r lucky not having to go through that every month. Just resting on the couch & it's a stunning day outside.

Keep doing what you're doing, I think you are doing great 🙂 any more house hunting?

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Miss , hope your tummy feels better soon ...have you got a hot water bottle ? Have had a good day , am on call and got a call out this morning early around 8am ...then went out again at 11am they were easy jobs and i enjoyed it ...i have a back up guy who helps or we help each other ...its pretty cool ...When i got home i made another pizza ..haha ...it was yum yum ...i did a little house work and have just jumped on the couch as well for a rest ...its a nice day and very quite ...its a real Sunday ...So 10 people won ...they would have got a nice amount each ... good luck to them ..wish you were telling me you won ...one day Monkey !

Yes i feel pretty good just doing my own thing ...not answering to anyone ...and i have been keeping things balanced ...a big one for me ...trying not to do the extreme one way or the other ... get my sleep ... and exercise ...it seems to be working ... My friend is busy with his 4 girl friends and i dont miss seeing so much of him ...its not that i dont like him its just we are a little different ...im not a big drinker and every time we go somewhere its a bottle of wine or 2 and it puts me in a spin ....so have been lying low and am lovin it...i find on your own doing all you have to do and work is heaps ...i dont want to sound boring but you dont have to be having a party every night ... anyway ...i like doing my own thing ...its easy ...I just made an English Breakfast tea ...yes into the Soda water ...the mineral water has carbs they say ...its nice with ice ...the celebs insta ...was reading about johnny dep this morning ...he has spent nearly a billion dollars ...thats crazy man ...it was interistaing to see what he has spent it on ... pretty funny ...but sad ,he is not well ...State of Origin tonight ...you better not comment otherwise i will know what state your from ...smile smile ... Queensland will win anyway ... smile smile ... Yes you can watch everything on You Tube.... Was looking at how to make a wood fired pizza oven ... this aussie makes one using a fit ball ...so funny ... Have a nice night ...hope you feel better ... Another cuddle sent ...You ate all the pasta didn't you ... smile smile ...was the coffee nice with the pasta ?

xx

[awrinkle_in_time]

Ps ...haven't looked any houses this week ...have looked at all that is on the market ...the agent will ring when he gets something ... the right one will come along ... i dont mind waiting ...my daughter has moved in with her boyfriends parents ... and everyone is happy ...she got a dog ...so me and my son are in the unit ...all is good ...he is 21 and does his own thing ...

you also sound good ... happy ... xo

[monkey_magic]

I thought u said Queensland was going to win ....lol

I've been in many of those alcohol spins..being typsy without the spin is mucha betta. 4 girls is a lot to keep up with. I think there will be drama lol. Esp when they find out about each other. Tummys feeling better thanks. I got through it 🙂

The monkey in the pic was given to me by an ex flatmate, it also has a scent. It hangs in my bedroom.

I'm looking forward to house rules tonight.

Smiles & hugs back 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi,

Yes good the see NSW have a win ... House rules ,is that the cooking show ? Was it good ? .. we were busy with work last night ... got home late ... feeling a little tired ...will have an easy day today ... I like the Monkey ...its cool ..Not much to report ,all good ... I eat lots of Red Papaya i cut it up and have it in the fridge ... I have 4 to cut up, might do that some time today ....Red Papaya ...its a fruit ... love it ... Have a lovely day my friend ... xxoo