relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

Haha there are a lot of good points in your post, I now also know how to spell Hari Krishna...I think I've been to their restaurant once- nice healthy food. I rem seeing them dancing an a rock at the beach, some of them looked blissfully happy fully encapsulated by the earths energy,dance,and drums- I wanted to be one of them...how much fun to be dancing to the beat in the streets as well.

I've also been to Noosa over and over and over- it was my favourite place. I used to walk to the top, watch the dolphins, sea turtles...walk to the nudist beach on the other side, sunbake, swim and walk back. The sunsets there were amazing. I'd sleep in my car there and do it all again the next day. I kinda like your form of fishing. I still think it's cruel to cut a fish and bleed it out- I used to get a man to do it. I just couldn't bring myself to cut the fish...I watched a lot of it though.

It sounds like we were at the same place at Morton bay. I've been up and down those sand dunes and snorkled at the ship wreck. I stayed there overnight on a boat...I've also been on a cruise over there. Lots of dried up starfish on the sand. The underwater world is colourful and amazing...I'd do that trip again in a heartbeat.

Yep have to watch out for those bullsharks, I had a close encounter in the Brisbane river once. Watched people catch them at Redcliffe. It's good that you listened to your senses and got out of there. I once got out of the water because of a massive stingray...

It's really good you are seeing the shrink lady can I borrow her 🙂

When u think about it we are pretty lucky as there's always someone worse off for example that guy with Parkinson's- and some people have never even been to the beach in there lives...

[awrinkle_in_time]

You Make me smile i just love the way you write ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

So did you become a Hari at any stage ... There was shop on the coast that made real yummy food ...i think it closed down ... it looked like slop in the bowl but it tasted good ..haha ..

yes we do have to appreciate ...everything is different when you appreciate thing .. like going to the beach ...and having your health ...Ive been listening to real positive CDs in the car while im at work ...the shrink lady suggested it ...see ..driving the car would trigger thoughts of Sharon ...i do a lot of in the car ....and having the positive CDs playing has broken that habit ... so good ...such a simple thing ...im listening to Dr Wayne Dyer ...i love it ...i heard all the stuff before but its doing me a huge benefit ...Just Love It Monkey !!!.....

The shrink lady i see is paid for by medicare and my work helps with a few appointments ....so if i space them out i can get the year for free and then it all starts again the following year ...it has been a god send ...im so lucky that i have found this lady i really click with her ...she is an older lady and very good at her job ...i think thats half the battle finding someone you click with ....

I often go to Nossa ...have a swim buy an ice cream ...I have done that walk many times over the years ... around to tea tree ..

its just the most beautiful place ...

Did you get you assignment finished ? ... Ive been getting to the gym and feel good for that ...clothes are fitting well feel strong ... i like that ...Have work on tomorrow ..and am on call which means the phone can ring anytime ...day or night ... i hate the after midnight calls ...it only comes around ever 6 weeks so thats okay its part of the job ...i have an apprentice tomorrow to keep me company ...we will make it a good day ...

They sunk a Navy ship near by about 8 years ago...and you can go out and scuba dive down to it ....ive done it a few times ...its so cool ...you can swim into the ship down the passage ways into rooms .....the rooms are full of fish ...hundreds of them ...only little ones ...the ship is called the Brisbane .... have never seen a shark ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Got a call out ...enjoy your night 🙂 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Lots of positives again from your last post.

I'd be interested to scuba dive in the Brisbane- that ship with the rooms and little fish- that would be an interesting thing to do.

Nope can't say I have ever been a hari krishner...wouldn't mind dancing with them though. Slop in a bowl sounds yum too.

Hope works been great and the CDs keeping life positive.

I've decided I will buy my own house. I've found the area I can afford down the track and am going to start saving for a deposit. I can't believe I'm saying this, but I think I can do it 🙂

You know what I've been single for a while now- yeah I've seen guys here n there but single is doable I think...

Ive sent off another assignment/ assessment...think I did well in this one.

So, I have a dream I'm holding onto working towards... A house...Pretty sure it's one thing that keeps you going in life- working towards and aiming for those dreams.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Im sure you did well in your assignment ...you will be through the course before you know it ...

Yes working towards something is good i think it gives us purpose ...a house or a little unit is A Great Plan ...it makes you feel secure owning or paying off your own property ...

Had my hot water service leak ....its in a cupboard and it has done lots of water damage ...spent today pulling all the cupboards out ...I have a good friend who is a cabinet maker and we can we can re-build it ok ... so ive had a big day ...might go get a beer ..Ill have to have a cold shower for a couple of days ...plumber comes Saturday ...

it will be nice and new when its all finished ...

Yes diving the Brisbane is great ... you should do it ...May is a great time of year .

[awrinkle_in_time]

Not sure about being single , i do know what you mean ...when we were away skiing ...we were waiting in a bus stop and got chatting to this couple ....they had both been married and divorced .... They said they were friends and new each other while they were married ....anyway they were so happy ...the lady said they were 2 peas in a pod which i thought was a nice thing to say .... I feel the past relationship i had is drifting away ..

coming home from work and having time to myself is just lovely ...its just every now and again to have a friend , lover ... someone to hang out with ...is that fair to turn on and off a relationship ....i suppose if its talked about and it suits ...why not ....im not sure ... i know as a man i miss a female in my life ....i miss the affection ...and girls are lovely to look at 🙂 🙂 ....their beauty i mean ...But i do know i dont want to go through that pain again ...

a friend of mine has always told me ...Love , Trust and Respect ... having all 3 is what you need ....if one is lost all 3 are lost ...

The positive CDs im listing to ( Dr Wayne Dyre) tell me to be what you want ...so if you want love ...be love ...and so on ..so im trying to be love and maybe ill trip over a lovely lady in the street one day ...i hope i dont break my teeth ...have a nice day off tomorrow ... write back when you can i love hearing from you ... 🙂 🙂 ....

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i posted my thoughts on being single and they didn't post it ...not sure why ...i sent BB an email ...it has upset me as it makes me feel i have done something wrong ..in my mind i have not ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi ...

How was your day off ??

Am listening to the killers and having a beer ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Not a good idea listening to the killers ....the songs are killers ... it brought a tear or 3 ...