relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

wow ill take that one... empoweringly strong ... you think ?

[awrinkle_in_time]

Ohhh i fully understand i really do ...that love i also felt with her and had never before...i feel it flow through my body ...

its good to stay strong and move forward ...lets stick to the roses plan then the happy thoughts and all that stuff ...i just had a sweep up under the carpet ...ha ha ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

i have to sleep ...good night x sleepy music on.. a new one ...its so so so sleepy

[awrinkle_in_time]

All you can do is fully let go ..i woke this morning feeling clear ... i brought my cup of coffee and my piece of toast back to bed and when i got back in i turned the fan off ...i lay in bed thinking so many very important would not have happened ...i watched the fan slow down ...to a stop ... I might see a bit more of the day today ...

[monkey_magic]

I just noticed a wrinkle in time lol...I like it!!

You could also call what happened a blip in time..I'd like to think of breakups as a blip in time, or a wrinkle in time hehea...a bolt in time...a flutter in time....a crazy time...I'm coming up with weird words now...

So how are u going a wrinkle in time? I went to the gym today..I did a walk, bike ride and weights....then I went home and ate a lot... Hmmmm..

[awrinkle_in_time]

hi ya ..good job going to the gym ...i went on monday afternoon and had a walk tuesday morning ...i got on the bike with the peddles in front of you ...then did a little row and a few weights ...was good body feel toned ...had a not so good day today ...i just cant believe it ...i might have to ring the lady i see and get an earlier appointment ...i got home from work and just watched a million episodes of homeland on netflix ...i might go for a walk in the morning ...maybe going to the gym was the trigger ...anyway feel a bit better now ...just flat ...you sound good ...keep up the good work beautiful lady ..and thanks for checkin in

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Ya monkey ..Hope you had a nice week and all went well ...Is there a chilled glass of moscato goin on ?

My week was busy lot to do which is good i suppose it went pretty quick ...doing some work tomorrow then have a day off Sunday ... Want to get to the gym tomorrow afternoon ...thats my plan ... 🙂 🙂

[monkey_magic]

Theyre's really a duck in the oven quack quack...and I'm really going to eat it soon! Hope u made it to the gym and are feeling better 🙂

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , a duck in the oven ...and your going to eat it ... roast potatoes ? .. Feeling a little better ..got a few walks in ... waves at the beach are nice ... got to get to the gym ..have been working lots ... the rower is waiting for me ...

on the way home i got a pizza ...was very nice ...a corner shop one .... go to stop feeling sorry for myself i have decided ...Hope your week was good Monkey ... Hope the Duck was perfect ... did you have a sauce ? and Vegies ...

Just Love Talking With Ya ...

[monkey_magic]

Hugs mate,

Yeh see if u can stand tall without feeling sorry for yourself. Not like I can talk because I have felt sorry for myself too.

Pizza sounds delish. I haven't had any alcho since the last moscato so just duck, no sauce & mashed potato..

Waves sound lovely, so does the walk...

I'm watching movies tonight...I should have gone to the gym but haven't left the house. Got my first assignment back and passed. Pretty sure I'll be out of the clutches of the mental health team after my next appointment. That's been my biggest obstacle to conquer and it's pretty much done. The team leader said so over the phone. Thank God for my mum putting in a good word. You're great 🙂