relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[monkey_magic]

That's sweet of you sending me all that stillness ( insert stillness into me, OK done) I am still.....Yeah peace of mind is all we can ask for hey. Peace and serenity. Glad you stilled that scattered brain. My can be like that as well...I played pokies tonight, listened to a band and had a few. I also played tennis...felt like a cripple though with my sprained back, hope I can fix it.

Im really really happy for you, your trip sounds like a dream!

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hey Monkey , we have arrived home this morning ...got 3 seats to myself on the plane and slept most of the way home ...We had a great time lots of good days skiing ... lots of good memories to build on ... Hope your back is better, did you hit a power 4 hand winning shot and do an injury ?

I have pulled a calf muscle and its slowing me up ... might need a massage ...

Have a good week Monkey 🙂

[monkey_magic]

And I need a foot massage. Legs r killing from standing up all day at work ouch, and I have to do it all over again. I'll be joining in your snow memory building this winter- I'm most probably going to the snow then.

I injured my back at work boo hoo 😞

Also neck gets sore occasionally from when this woman rammed into the back of my car while I was sitting at the lights, unexpected and I got bad whiplash!

Btw Ed Sheeran is pretty good in concert.

& Your a champ!

3 seats to yourself as well lucky you.

[awrinkle_in_time]

That was lovely to read , thank you ... Hey i got a foot massage in America ... i was sitting there quietly getting my feet played with when the lady rolled up my jeans and starting massaging my calfs all the way up to my knee ...then they put on the massage chair it was amazing ... I was looking out the window of the shop and a guy walked past with a duck on a lead ...Just thought you might like to know that ...ha ha .. Glad you enjoyed Ed ...a live show is great ..Could you get a neck massage to get all the whiplash removed ... Are you going to ski or board ?..Thats a good plan to look forward to .. My friend who came away with me has skied a lot in Aust ... I have never been ...he says he has had many fun times .. he goes to perisher ..He tells me that when you buy a lift ticket you get lessons included ...a season pass would be the best way to go ...listen to me raving on .... I am feeling a bit more human today i picked up a bug in the last few days of the trip and along with the lack of sleep and jet lag ...its slow to get going again ... im just chilling out at home ... just going with it ...Hey ...i can see quite clearly that i dodged a bullet with the lady ...i feel quite strong ...i go back to work on Monday ...so will see what that does to the mental health ...Hope your back , feet and neck are better tomorrow 🙂 ... See Ya Champ !!! Might have some chicken soup for lunch ..

[monkey_magic]

Haha thanks for sharing the duck story u made me laugh! I Used to have a pet magpie when I was little. My dad used to put alcohol in the bread get the birds drunk and tied one up on a rope for me to have as a pet, cruel, I know.

Yes massages r great. I sit on these massage chairs in shopping centres which cost I think $2 for 3 mins or something like that, I also get professional ones & ones off any willing participant.

I am going to skiiiiiiii whheeeeee, can't wait. Yep, you dodged a bullet. I know because u keep saying u did. U know best.

Thanks for hoping my body parts r better- I hope dey are too....my feet r the worst right now, sore as......Till next time enjoy your chicken soup...Mmmmm duck so good to eat, vegans will hate me, oh well x

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Duck at the start Duck at the end ... Duck in the middle ...where does all this end ... A vegan would eat duck they would just not tell anyone ..hows the legs .. I had am ultra sound today on my shoulder ... the girl doing it was beautiful ...i was sitting with my shirt off... pumping my chest out like a pathetic male ...i was so out of breath ..

Do you think she would have noticed my ripped body ... just kidding im 300 kg over weight ...no thats not true either ... anyway i enjoyed talking with her ...she was married so i didnt ask her out for a duck curry ...Hey i had a shit couple of days love hate love hate love hate ... back to normal now ... little love not much hate ...hope your well monkey ... hey can you hold my hand for the week ...just until say sunday ... and just one hand .. Good Night Friend xx

[monkey_magic]

Hi Simon,

I really liked your humorous side & don't worry I'll share some duck curry with you & u don't have to pump out your chest OK hehe. U r one funny ducky!

Legs r better I've rested them & swelling has gone down, my other Job's in an office so I get to sit, now I'm the lucky ducky...mmmmm duck!

Sure, I can hold your hand- keep you company...it will pass....

If I see a man pumping out his chest to the ladies I'll always wonder...hmmm...was that him haha...

Take good care of yourself.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Had a Duck curry sat night was so filling ...had big chunks of chilli and it was very yummy ...Have you had a good week ?? ...hope all has gone well ...My week has been busy and getting back into it has been a little slow but all is good ...Doing my Sunday house work and getting ready for the week ...i enjoy getting organised for the start of the week ...have all the ducks in a row ... its motivating ... Im cooking up a buttered chicken curry for tea tonight and a bit of lunch tomorrow ...my daughter loves it ..

Hope your well . XX

[monkey_magic]

Butter chicken curry sounds delicious so does the duck curry- just don't tell that guy who had the pet duck....

My week was pretty balanced. It included study, work, writing, beach, shopping, socialising...

No ducks for me to eat though:-( but I did eat chicken!

I went into the water for a cleansing & breaststroked up & down the beach, got a bit burnt, it didn't take long. Good on you with the housework & being organised.

Just came back from shopping love buying new stuff.

Until next time, hope you have a great week 🙂 quack

[awrinkle_in_time]

HI Ya , Hows the week going ...Have you ever read a book called the Power of Now ??? By Eckhart Tolle ...

its a book i have read for years and i love it... i pick it up and put it down ...trying to read it cover to cover ...its a challenge for me ...thats my big news for the week ...its lovely not having any drama going on ...my ex wife has moved away a long way away ...hope your good ....going out for tea with my mate might have the salmon and veg ..

its a place we go tuesdays ...half price ..and its nice ...views of the beach ...Have a nice night ... have you had a duck curry yet ??