relationship breakup

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi ..yes bloody hot up hear as well ... good on ya for studying accounting go for it beautiful lady ...Your kicking ass Monkey ... So So Good ... All you need now is to meet a country music sining truck driver and all will be perfect ... i hope you got a laugh out of that ...Hey im taking some holidays from work ...and a group of us go to the snow in the US ... Im packing and getting ready ...im super excited ...we go Wednesday .. im taking my computer so i will still be able to say hello ....I love chatting with you ... Ive had feelings and memories but just going with it ...she was going to come skiing one year and didn't ...so a few little thoughts have crept in today ... im staying strong monkey ...i cant believe how far ive come its so good ...a year ago life was so shit .. and now i can really see a future ...making plans and staying away from the stuff that brings us down is so worth it ...mixing with different people making the change standing up for who we are and saying thats ok ..thats ok to be who i am ...

a little rave on there ... So proud of you friend getting your job and doing your study ...Well done Beautiful Lady xx

[monkey_magic]

So, today's the day you are off to the USA. So happy and excited for you the snow is amazing! I've been watching the winter Olympics and wishing I was there. I will hopefully have a ski trip this year in AUS but the USA, yeah, how lucky are you. It's a well deserved break for you too.

A country singing truck driver lol...I'll ask around haha.

Thanks for the encouragement with my work and study means a lot. I'm also happy that you've come as far as you've come within with the breakup. You said " that's OK to be who I am"- it sure is. You don't need anyone else to complete you but you.

So today you'll be in the sky..whoohoo...let us know how your ski trip goes. Are you skiing or snowboarding?

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , we have had a road trip which has been fun , we head up to the mountain tomorrow ...they had 25cm of snow yesterday ...the conditions are good ...I ski and so does my mate ...we have one guy in the group that snow boards he is crazy ..We made some friends last night at the bar during happy hour ...we had way to much to drink and have had a slow day ... Hope you well and work is good ...

[monkey_magic]

Hopefully your hangover has subsided by now ( just in case there been other ones). You are living my dream!!! USA rd trip, snow, skiing, go you!!!Hope you are having a peaceful, amazing & rechargeable time. It may even give u a new lease on life.

I've never tried snowboarding myself. Hope I can make it to the snow this winter... 🙂 Keep making those memories!

[awrinkle_in_time]

Yes hangover is all good ... we have been going easy .. We have arrived at the mountain and the snow is falling. ...We didn't go out today it was so overcast so we did a couple of things down town and just chilled out ...The weather tomorrow is ment to be nice ...hopefully the sun will be out and with the fresh snow it should be good ..

We went down town tonight and the roads were covered in snow the we just got back its really coming down ..its so nice ... Its ment to snow again on Thursday .. Yes the road trips in the US are fun .. we do this ski trip every year and my mate i travel together and we meet up with a bunch of people when we get here ..its a great reset for the year ... and your right about the memories ...a real good friend got me coming every year and its been a great thing to look forward to ... yes good memories ... Hope your day went well and all is good 🙂 🙂 ...

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi Friend , We have had 2 fantastic days ...perfect conditions ...was so good ...the body is tired in a good way ... A storm has just come in so will have a couple of days off which will be nice ...Lots of snow coming down ...

Enjoy your weekend..

[monkey_magic]

Glad you're having fun & enjoying yourself!!!

I went to the gym yday & loved it...

Also been catching up with friends & getting to know new people.

Had a few yummy alcoholic beverages myself the last couple nights!!!

Thats what lifes all about, living it & loving it- might as well make the most of our short time here in earth.

Still, I wish I was at the snow...Going up the lift, skiing down the mountain & repeat..

Good times.

I absolutely love the scenery at the snow.

Stay safe.

[awrinkle_in_time]

Hi , Yes make the most of every day is a good way to go ...Glad you enjoyed your gym work out ... The snow has just stopped coming down it has changed the look of the place cars completely covered ....all the roads are difficult to drive on ...the skiing was crazy yesterday it was Sat and there were lots of people ...the powder and tree skiers came out ...there were lovin it ... we had lots of great runs ...it has been colder than other years and my friend has been feeling it ...his hands get so cold he has to come in and warm them up and head out again ...he wears all the good gloves ... its -11 today ...and when you get up the chair lift with some wind blowing its pretty nippy ...it wake you up thats for sure ... Next week will be great ..during the week you don't get the crowds ... We went into town for dinner Sat night and it was snowing so much it looked beautiful ... the trees are covered ...the snow all over the ground ... something we don't get at home ... getting all rugged up and walking around was so nice ....

Hope your weekend went well and you enjoyed your friends ... Have a busy week...get heaps done 🙂 🙂 🙂

[monkey_magic]

I enjoyed your real life snow story! Yes, I'm getting a lot done. Working on my writing, clothes business, work, family, gym....I've decided to study occupational therapy instead of accounting....I feel like listening to some music atm, better still can I magically appear and come on your trip ......

[awrinkle_in_time]

Okay sure you can , the day yesterday was perfect ...we went out skiing and the sun wasn't fully out so a slight shadow on the snow ...which makes it a little hard to see .. we persisted cause everything else about the day was perfect ..The days temp was nice not to cold and the crowds had left ...we skied from the Nevada side to the California side and the sun came out making the snow so visible ....it made the day just perfect ...my head space early in the morning was a little scattered ...i think i was afraid of falling ...not being able to see fully ...but when the sun came out and i could see it energised me ...we skied all day ..it puts your mind in a beautiful place ...free of all thought ...its lovely ...We talk to all different people on the ski lift and its lovely to meet different people from all over the world ... We Australians are well liked and they love to hear about our country ...

Enjoy your music lovely lady ,drift away, find that peace for a moment ...find that still place with no thinking ..build on it ... love it... you deserve it ....Sending you all the stillness from the snow capped mountains ...Love Love Love Love ....