Hi , i was in a relationship the first after a divorce of a 20 year marriage , i didn't think i would find love again , i meet this lady through some good friends and we started slow seeing each other on weekends , we lived 2 hrs apart .. we found comfort in each other and the time we spent together was the best time i have ever spent with a women , i could watch the grass grow for ever in her company . as time went on the baggage in both our lives came out and instead of dealing with it we just broke up .. she was scared and so was i .. the going our own ways happened so suddenly and i couldn't believe it happened ...approx 10months ago ... we had little contact and got on with our lives ..i whole time feeling very sad i felt a massive loss .. honestly thought we wold spend our lives together .. i speak of the good times now but there were times that her baggage came out and with out an open communication at these times it would be impossible to have a lasting relationship ...no such communication was possible ... and i know us being apart is better ..but i am still so in love with her ...i messaged her a few days ago and showed her pictures of my apartment which i have renovated ..the finished product ..she didn't reply ..i messaged my feelings and she replied with i think you should move on like i have ..i asked her if she was seeing anyone and she said yes ...i had to get myself home and i vomited many times and just put myself to bed ..i am reliving the weekends i said with her and seeing another guy in her life exactly like i was ...i try to reflect to the times that help me understand that it wouldn't have worked between us but my heart is so full of love for her .. its painful and i can't stop crying
Hi , hey was reading backwards in the forums ...you know things have really improved in the last few months ..
things are moving in a good forward direction .... I recon they are for you as well ...can i say that or is that ..not sure, said it anyway ...ment well by it ... sometimes when i feel good i want to contact her and pass on the good vibe ... im not going to ...cause ive done that in the past and its been torture... so ill forget that one and just let it sit and keep it all in the past ... hey have you been at the gym ...have you got your body like the trainer lady yet ...my trainer body is a working progress ...i went to the gym today was a good balance up ... its not to hot as its got A/C ... so thats good ... My son has taken a job an hour away ...its a full time job and he is so excited about it ... he can pull time out of his uni degree while he works in the new role ... i will miss him when he moves out .. he's a pain and does no house work but i love having him around ... Its positive for him and im happy for him he will do well ...my daughter might move in with me as her mum is moving interstate ... she wants her own place but she has just started working and cant afford it so 6 month with dad will give her a good start ... see what happens ... anyway just got tired ...sitting relaxing after the day i get weak and want to sleep ..ha ha ...I hope your going good and i thank you for your friendship .. its been a tough journey and you have helped me so much ...i feel im getting stronger ...and when i reflect back ...the forums have been so so helpful ...Grateful to all at BB ...especially you monkey_magic ..
What a heartfelt post. You also sound like a really good dad giving your daughter a great start in life good on you. Glad you are progressing & getting stronger, yes, things have also progressed in my life and I start a new job next year.
I don't have that trainers body yet, maybe one day.
I'm happy to hear that being on here has helped, you are so positive.
Hi Miss magic ..Am so happy you got a job ...Bloody Ripper ... a big hug and lots of love ... when do you start and what are you doing ... thats if you don't mind me asking ..??? Well keep working on the trainers body .. ha ha .. hey you know we are who we are and to look like her is so much work and so much ego ... im sure you look perfect .. absolutely perfect xx
I have the weekend off work and am so looking forward to just chilling out and well just not working ...
I am a good dad and i love my girl ...she needs her dad for a while right now so i cant wait for her to move in it will be so nice .... we will have fun...
Have a great weekend beautiful lady ..I love communicating with you it makes me happy ... thank you
Hi , Glad your enjoying your job ...yes the money is handy for sure ... My daughter finished year 12 last year and has been working part time in a coffee shop and today she got a full time job and she is so happy ..
