Purple

[Purple_lady1]

Hi

Was recommended to start my own thread so here it is. The gist of it is I am unhappy, unmotivated and don't enjoy or look forward to anything. Am always tired and hate my life!

[monkey_magic]

I'm sorry to hear this purple but I assure you people understand how you feel, this is beyond blue. It sounds like you are also going through an emotional time?

I get down in the dumps, don't always go out, don't always exercise, don't go to the bit of casual work ive got. I feel like crap too. Ive been deceived, betrayed, had depression- maybe I still do. You aren't alone purple I assure you a lot of us here feel your pain. We also offer suggestions that have helped us.

I find helping someone out on the forums to be rewarding, even if I don't feel it, you know what I mean...I don't always feel what I'm supposed to~ it sucks, you know it does I know it does. Life can be gut- wrenching.

I've had lots of horrible stuff happen to me, a lot of us have.

Keep chatting you're in understanding company.

[monkey_magic]

Just saw a post come up-Not coping anymore- by needing support, PTSD and trauma section.

Perhaps you could write to her- I think you both might feel similarly, someone that understands.

[Purple_lady1]

Don't know where that post is but I so feel left out in all these threads I have no connection with anyone. I am frustrated

Don't know where that post is. All I know right now is I hate my life, I hate me, I hate my past, I hate my present and I sure as hell am very scared of my future.

Purple

[Feeling_Lonely]

I’m sorry if I upset you Purple. I just want you to want more for yourself. The way you talk about yourself, it’s so harsh, and I can see you crying out for help, but not knowing how to move forward. I am merely trying to offer some suggestions that have helped me and that I have read here have helped others.

I think you’re a person of value, a person who is worthy of love, kindness, happiness and good things in their life... I wish you could see yourself through my eyes. Yeah, I don’t know you personally, but I don’t need to... You are a human being, you’ve may have made some mistakes but that doesn’t make you any less of a person. You want to volunteer and help people, that shows me your character. You’re here posting, that shows me that you do value yourself and want help.

You are not alone in how you’re feeling. We are all posting here for a reason... because we are battling mental illness of some kind.

[Ggrand]

Hi Purple,

I'm just thought I would call in and see how you are going,

Well done for going out, that is a huge step up for you, im so proud of you for going out.

Feeling lonely is something I feel a lot, I try to keep as busy as I can with, mind challenging games on my iPad,, or play with my dogs or just pet them and yes talk to them.

I agree with feeling lonely and have suggested it before, please consider going to you GP, they can help you with professionals, It's to hard to do alone, I'm not quite sure but I think it something like 8 free visits to a Pysch. You owe it to yourself, be kind to yourself.

Us depressed have to try to change our negative thoughts into positive thoughts, when we are having Sad or unhealthy thoughts we need to get our mind off them buy doing something to distract the thoughts, could be petting your dog, cleaning house, going for a walk, reading a book, internet games, watching a DVD that you enjoy, listening to music etc.. I do most of these within one day to stop the Sad and negative thoughts, please give some a try.

Kind thoughts

Karen.

[Purple_lady1]

All good advice but very, very, very, very hard to put into action. I f I do, I still feel lonely and crave human contact. There is a limit to how far I can go without someone caring about me. How pointless is my life. If you could look at it, you would agree with me. So much not written, so much not told. I know what I'm like but no one else does. If you knew you would not care either. Thank you so, so much for replying

Purple

[Ggrand]

Hi Purple,

Im sorry you feel like this, I really am. My life has been one that not many would have survived. One that I didn't want to continue with, but I took the advise of these wonderful people here on BB Forums, tried there suggestions and even though I struggle daily, have flashbacks, cry a lot, see no one for sometimes weeks, I can be positive that there is a better life out there for me, and I'm going to find it.

We all care for you here and are trying to help you. Please can you tell me if you will consider getting professional help, without it, it's to hard, to get well by yourself.

kind thoughts

Karen

[Purple_lady1]

I have done all that but in the long run it is entirely up to me. As has been said many times, there is no magic wand. I am sick of feeling lonely and unhappy. I hate what my life has become, some my own fault that I can't change now and some not my fault. I am so desperate to have someone understand that I try but fail. The sadness and loneliness overwhelms me and I am stuck. Even when I am doing something, putting on some stupid, pathetic act, I feel so inferior to everyone else. If I am amongst people I see how lonely I am as there is laughter and fun around me and I am alone. Am at my wits end. There is so much more which brings out other feelings like embarrassment and shame. I have ruined a very precious life that in all honestly should have been given to a better being

Purple

[Feeling_Lonely]

You mentioned you feel stuck... what is your strategy or what have you done / trying to do for getting unstuck? I am interested to hear what steps you have taken / are taking to help yourself.

[Purple_lady1]

Nothing anymore. Am so. so. so sick of trying and finding dead ends. I am stuck with this life as it has become. Sad, lonely, pathetic. That is all

Purple