New and not sure what to do

[Pysis]

Hi um I've never done anything like this so please tell me if I need to do something differnt

I'm a 18 year old male and I've been depressed for the passed 7 months or so it all started when I had to put my horse down when hiss throat closed over it was very traumatic for me and he was the second horse I'd put down in a period of three months. Then my friend was having issues with work so I was trying to support her and be there for her just checking in on her and making sure she was ok she was suffering bulling really badly in the work place. While I was trying to be there for her I got very sick with a stomach bug and was sick for over a month I lost 17kg over that period of time and ended up in hospital 3 times for a period of over a week while I was in hospital I was still helping my friend. Once I got out of hospital my friend was really strugling so I made an extra effort to help her and that's when I got really bad myself. I stated to remember repressed memories from my childhood of things my obusive father had done and stuff from me being at school and being severely bullied. up until 2 weeks ago I was coping alright but then my boss made me work on a puppet show that she was making and I wasn't getting paid for it it has been a difficult situation becuase she is also a friend and she has no idea that I have been struggling with my mental health at all. I have ended up feeling very used by my boss as I put in 7 days free work for her and missed out on seeing my grandparents who kind of replaced my dad in someways growing up and she had my camera for over a month. She has slowly demanded more from me as time has gone on and I ended up having to preform in front of people which I wasn't really up for and the whole situation has cuased me to end up where I was before in terms of my depression. I don't know why but when I get really depressed like I am I have panic attacks and end up messaging my friend who is the only person I've ever been able to talk to. She has a new job now though and is working all the time and me messaging her is causing her stress and I don't want to do that to her and she also has kids that's she's trying to be there for. I don't know how to stop myself messaging her when I have my panic attacks becuase at the moment it's the only thing that helps it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I guess what I want to ask is dose anyone have any suggestions as to what to do I'm in a remote town so getting proffesonal help is difficult.

[Pysis]

Hi v

my mums best friend has almost finished a vet nursing course through tafe. Maybe you could help me with something else that has been worring me then I have a young goat that has this abbess that just showed up about 3 weeks ago on his jaw I took him to the vet with my mum and they lanced it and flushed it and couldn't find anything inside so they gave me some intramuscular antibiotics to give him and I gave them to him over the next few days and it went away but last week he developed it again so mum went to the vet and got some more antibiotics and a scalpel so I can lance it myself and I've been giving him the antibiotics every second day and I've had to lance it 2 now over that time and it really stinks when I do but today I've run out of the antibiotics and I'm not sure what to do from here on. Any ideas?

amd yeah unfortunately I am a very sensitive person some times I wish I didn't care as much but I can pick up on people's emotions really easy even when I'm just talking to them online and I can't help but worry. My friend has been really the only friend I've had for the past 5 years and I've known her since I was 12 and she is like my sister I really miss her and I'm also so god damn worried about her I know her husband and he is getting worse he's always intimidated me but he's being so controlling at the moment I don't want to lose my freind and I don't know what to do.

[Pysis]

Thank you guys for being here for me as well it means so much.

[velvetfaerie]

Once you lance the abscess are you flushing it with anything?

im a real sensitive as well. Sucks at times.

[Pysis]

Yeah I've been flushing it out with saline but it dosent seem to do much.

yeah it dose suck sometimes, it would be good to just turn it off for a while but still have the empathy superpower it is when we need it.

thanks again.

[velvetfaerie]

I'm a spaz... the vet flushed it.

but subsequent flushings??

v.

[velvetfaerie]

Saline is isotonic , (maintains osmotic balance in cells) ... unlikely to dehydrate bacteria enough to kill them.

Try salt water flush, stronger than 0.9% saline.

or dilute chlorhexidine or iodine.

v.

[Pysis]

yeah so every time I lance it I flush it out with saline.

[Pysis]

I have no idea what the source of the infection is there doesn't seem to be anything inside it and I've checked his teeth and they are fine no sharp bits or anything inside his mouth cuasing problems I'm at a loss.

[Pysis]

Ok thank you I'll try the salt wash I sujested that to the vet and my mums vet nurse friend but they told me to just use the saline, what would I know I'm only 18.

Thank you so much ill try lancing it again tomorrow and then rinse it wish the salt wash.

[velvetfaerie]

My rationale is - saline is not going to trash cellular stability like stronger salt water will. Saline is to support life ... not destroy it. Bacteria is in there creating the immune response - the PUS MMMM urghhh lol.

The osmotic pull of the saltier water should shrivel up and destroy bacteria hanging out in there.

In short - drying out an infection usually clears it.

Can't hurt to try 👌🏻