Just want to Shout out

[Guest_1055]

I am just so tired, and I don't think I can try anymore. All I want to do is curl up tight and cry and cry. I am sick of this, and I even feel cross, as I said that. I can't do this, I just can't. And I don't think I want to anymore. I am not asking for any advice really and I am aware of the phone numbers and such., etc. But I just want to shout and shout out loud and say that I am plain sick of this. I am tired of struggling to get to where ever it is that I am going. I don't think I am making any sense either. So since I am unable to shout out in real life at the moment. I hope it is okay with whoever who reads this that I am virtually going to shout out now. I also feel like punching out, because it is just too much. It's too much.

I HATE THIS, JUST HATE IT. I AM TIRED OF FAILING AND FAILING. I JUST WANT TO GO.

[Guest_1055]

Hey Velv,

I was cruising along , but currently I am at the gym pedalling on this bike whilst typing to you.

I started to feel self conscious and awkward . A member in here came up to me while I was on treadmill just a while ago.

She said in a loud voice, that I looked marvelous and that I should be proud of myself.

I saw her heart and knew she was trying to encourage me. So I said oh thankyou"

But I felt embarrassed and wished for the floor to swallow me up. She spoke very loud. So I started to feel very awkward and when imU got of the treadmill, there was no place to hide.

Hence why I am on the bike here. Head down trying to type to you, with music playing via ipod,

Anyway I will kept pedalling and sort of hiding here, by tuning out the other people surrounding me.

Feeling very self conscious

[Guest_128]

Shell,

Just keep swimming,

You know what, I am so very proud of you that you can even get to the gym.

now just rember this,

there are people there that are our breed.

and

the others are just that others. There like willy wonkers.

Dory

[velvetfaerie]

Exactly. Just keep swimming. And don't be ashamed of anything. Don't hide. Be proud of yourself. I understand what it is like to not want attention drawn to us. I feel that way at times.

Keep peddling and keep listening to the music ! What music do you like?

V.

[Guest_1055]

Ah thanks heaps for your kindness Dory and Velv. I am not sure what else to say. I am okay. I ended up staying there for the full hour. So yeah I kept pedalling.

Shell xx

[velvetfaerie]

An hour! Good work!

I hope you feel better for it too. Exercise - endorphins. 😄

V.

[Guest_1055]

Ah thanks Velv, I do feel physically better and glad that I didn't run. As in take off and leave the whole place.

Did you get the opportunity to go to the gym yourself? I do know you are struggling a bit at the moment.

Shell xx

[Guest_3712]

Hey Shelley,

The most I do is long walks, So I really admire you and Velvet that can do really good workouts at the gym

What I really admire is you hanging in there and not running away- great job !

Now you need to work on excepting compliments- something I also have trouble with , but it all contributes to feeling better about ourselves.

You are awesome Shelly anne, no squirming or pulling away - just one of those gorgeous smiles and a thank you will suffice

Stressless

[velvetfaerie]

HEY Shelley, and SL,

rest day for me today but come tomorrow is a double ... back to back classes. And totally go you for staying and finishing your workout. That’s focus !!!

My struggle at the moment is odd. But I’m ok 🙂🙂 I will be ok. My body is adjusting to “normal”. Lol... I’m far from normal.

🙈🙈🙈

[Guest_128]

I just want to

SHOUT OUT

What Is going on with everyone????????

I feel like it's Xmas day and there is 50 relatives here.

Stop it all . If I can't swear on here you guys can't carry on with this negativity that seems to be going nowhere.

So everyone pull ya heads in,and wake up to yourselves.

Yep cranky Dory fish

[Guest_1055]

I am hearing your angry shout dear Dory. Hope you will be okay?

I am happy to go for a nice gentle swim with you if you like. Mmm feeling the cool water now. Just beautiful and refreshing.

Shell xx